Friday, March 22, 2013
I'm incredibly tired right now. I've felt kind of out of it all day, and my workout was less than stellar. I'm terrified about tomorrow's workout because Coach assigned me 30 minutes of jump rope! I'm still sore from the 300 jumping jacks I did yesterday (yes, 300. Unreal.) And my knees hurt, but that's a whole other issue.
Have almost finished my first week of clean eating. I didn't give myself enough options for healthy fats this week so I've been pretty hungry and today was even feeling a little weak. I have a tendency to eat too little when I'm eating healthy.
I was invited to watch a movie at someone's house but they were ordering pizza and I felt it was too soon to expose myself to that temptation. I know that avoiding social situations won't work as a long-term strategy but for now, it keeps me safer.
Some days the best thing you can say is, ''I made healthy choices.'' I don't always feel the supposedly positive effects of these choices. In the past that held me back from really following through. But now my attitude has changed. I realize there will be some days I just feel like crap but it doesn't mean a healthy lifestyle isn't the best thing for me. And who knows, maybe I would be feeling worse right now if I had made unhealthy choices?
I'm also learning to work through chronic pain. Oooh, I was so angry with my coach the other day when I was sick in bed after a painful day and he told me to work out anyway! But I did it just to humor him, and I ended up feeling a lot better afterward. He discourages messing with any pain that leads to injury, but this was ''just'' pain from endometriosis meaning there was no real reason I couldn't work out other than it would be unpleasant. But I of course realized I could either feel awful in bed or I could feel awful exercising and at least get something out of my day.
Tonight I was craving a carb boost - normally I'd have something like cereal or crackers. Instead I had steamed peas with feta cheese. And it was delicious.
Today was even productive at work, so at least I can say I fully lived this day. I'm so incredibly tired I'm going to bed now. Have a nice time.
Oh, one last thing - my wedding ring was stolen last week. I'm still pretty upset about it. And Phase 2 match day is on Monday, so hopefully we will get good news and Dom will get an internship. Honestly I'm afraid he won't and he will be devastated and it will be really painful, but there's nothing I can do to prevent it. I arranged to work from home Monday so that I can be there for him if he needs me. But you know, I'm really hoping life will cut us a break this time.
Ok, now officially good night!