Friday, March 22, 2013
I have a Spark friend I know who is dying from cancer. She is and has terrific faith in God. She doesn't whine. I met a new Spark friend who lost her husband in a house fire, a house fire! I can't even think of anything more tragic. I have Spark friends who are caring for elderly and soemtimes difficult parents and who don't get any help from siblings. I have Spark friends who are sepaarated from their loved ones, divorced, widowed, in many ways alone. Spark friends in constant pain, who have lost pets, who never had pets. I have Spark friends who suffer daily in many ways and they are not blogging every day whining about their lives. So, I need a new attitude. I need to stop the pity party and toughen up. True, life has thrown me some major crap, but I don't have it as bad as some and do have it worse than others. I feel I was getting adicted to the love and support from my Spark friends here. But, I need to stop. I need to update you all on the status of things and let it go. Life isn't as terrible as I feel it is and I know that is true. I also know that in the same situation my mom would put her faith and strength in God and while feeling sad and missing a person who died she would do her best to se see the positive and would make positive things happen. That is what I need to do.
Sleep has been a problem for me the past few nights and I can only assume it is a reaction to the steroid shot. Lack of sleep adds to depressive episodes, so I need to work on my sleep.
The good news is that I've kept within my calorie range lately and still exercise daily. I've missed Curves 2 days in a ro and won't meet my 4 day goal this week, but my shoulder couldn't take it. But, today I tried a couple walking DVDs I've had on the shelf and enjoyed them. The hsoulder is not hurting today, so that is good too!
Jack went to the vet today for his spa visit and for some blood work, but I haven't heard anything yet. He really does seem to be improving more each day. My nephew was supposed to come up and go kite flying, but he had his weekends confused, so we may get to do that next weekend. Dad has plans for Easter and I am glad of that.
I'm going to adjust my way of thinking. As a therapist, while I use different methods, I am at my heart a cognitive therapist and truly believe that changing the way I think will change the way I feel, so I am working on changing the negative thinking processes that are keeping me down. This is within my power. Only I can make me feel better! so, watch out! Theplan is to cut the whining and to post positive messages! I can do that, right?