60,000-79,999 SparkPoints 79,190

"Don't let the knockdowns keep you down!"©

Friday, March 22, 2013

I've recently been having medical-surgical consultations about having some plastic surgery to remove excess abdominal tissue. My "apron" is very large and pendulous since losing my 200+ lbs and 123 in.+ in my journey to the new me. Well, the final word is that "We won't touch you for this type of major surgery". I am no longer in the "morbidly obese" arena and that no longer is the issue. It is that I have too many major medical issues that put me at risk. My brain surgeon tells me to save any surgeries for "emergencies". Some of my medical history includes previous blood clots, a brain hemorrhage, seizures, electrolyte issues, to mention a few. I guess this is why I've been disabled since 2001. I've dreamed since my journey began in March 2009, that someday I would have this procedure and my stomach would look so much better. But?

I may have been discouraged and disappointed and knocked down, but I have definitely NOT been knocked out! I'm still on my journey to the new me and will continue on as I've been doing. I'll have to adjust some of my t-shirts and blouses to be longer in order to disguise my "situation", but at least they are not "big sizes" any longer. I've come to far to turn back now.

If you have become discouraged, disappointed, tearful, anxious, angry, frustrated, having a "giving up" attitude, or a "who cares anyway" mind set......throw it out the window! Life is short. Look how far you have come, are going, have already accomplished, have goals you have already met, have visualized what you will look like in the future, see how your dreams are coming true.......put your journey first and think the positive.....even in the face of negative.

We can all do this and will end up the best that we can be. Nothing is impossible!

"Hold on to my arm & let's journey together!"
(© Paula's Thoughts)

Have a blessed day and wonderful journey to the new you!

Paula emoticon
© 2013, Paula Boyd-Friend, all rights reserved

Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
  • FISHER011
    YOU are an Inspiration! emoticon on your wonderful weight loss!
    1763 days ago
    Im hanging in there but i have days where i want to just give up and want to eat every thing and a lot but i have more days where i want to beat this problem and will i hope.. Thanks for the great blog! makes me want to kick those not so motivating moments in the butt and out the door! Blessings, Bonnie

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1792 days ago
    Keep working out and you'll continue to see important. Very give up.
    1793 days ago
    Wish I would have read this last night; I was ready to throw in the towel at first, but thankfully got myself under control .. only to get a better report then I'd thought I was going to get.. we really do need to stop thinking of food as a fix!

    How long has it been since you lost your weight? I hear that after a few years it can start to tighten up on it's own.. you look great even without their help! emoticon
    1794 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/27/2013 10:10:11 PM
    Wow ! I love your attitude. I am one of the worlds worst at letting something get me down and not being able to look at the positive side of it. But you are right. There is always a positive side to things. It is just if you choose to see it or not. I am so inspired by you and your journey. I hope to one day say that I have accomplished as much. What a wonderful heart you have! Your attitude is one of which we should all wish to have. Congrats on your weight loss and your winning attitude.!
    1794 days ago
    I love what you said , about being knock down not knocked out. LOL Good thought! have a great week. Paulette
    1795 days ago
  • MARIANNE9855
    Hooray for you- accepting that the good you have achieved is the most important thing. I hope to lose so much weight that I have an apron too!

    what an inspiration you are to all of us... emoticon
    1795 days ago
    I do understand as I have lots of 'flabby excess skin' also in the tummy and thigh area. I have no desire to have it surgically removed and have decided to just consider this as my 'weight loss trophy' !!!! No it's not pretty but it was def well earned and something I want to remember that I never want to fill it up again !!! As long as I can see this "trophy" I will be so very proud of what I have accomplished. I still have more to loss and I am still working at living a healthy life ... for the rest of my life !!!!

    Congrats to you on your success and earning your "trophy" !!!!
    1795 days ago
    Oh wow.. I feel I was sent to this blog! I needed to hear what you had to say.. thank you so much for saying all of that.. im sure there are tons of us out there who are feeling just how you say not to and why.. I feel so much better now! Thank you for the inspiration~

    1795 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/26/2013 1:38:57 AM
    Great post! emoticon

    "Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out." John Wooden
    1797 days ago
    Thank you for sharing. You are an inspiration to many. You are blessed with the ability to see things in a positive way. It is, indeed our challenges which make us stronger. I am sorry you have to face so many serious ones, but they make you the woman you are. Your outlook will benefit your general well-being in so many ways.
    Wishing you all the best. emoticon
    1798 days ago

    You are such a positive inspiration for all of us here on Spark!

    I'm sorry that surgery isn't an option, but you are right that you have come too far to let anything get you down!

    Congratulations on the wonderful journey that you have taken and are continuing to take!

    Big Hugs,

    Jane emoticon

    1798 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/23/2013 6:10:04 PM
    Paula you have such a great attitude. Sorry that it was not an option for you.
    Thank you for sharing your journey
    1799 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/22/2013 9:34:17 PM
    Thanks for your share, you are an inspiration.
    1799 days ago
    I'm sorry to hear about not being able to have the surgery. You have a great outlook & that will carry you through. It's better to be alive & mobile with the apron than passed on or in another "state of mind" without it!

    I am at the beginning of my journey, but I already have an apron! I wonder if I lost weight, would my apron become a skirt :) Minus the apron, I truly have a long torso & finding tops to cover enough is tough.
    1799 days ago
    What a good attitude you have!
    1799 days ago
  • KITT52
    you must do what is healthy for you....we are here with you....

    1799 days ago
    Thank you for being an inspiration for moving ahead.
    1799 days ago
    I am sad for you that this will not be an option. emoticon
    My apron is not that big,but it's still a bother and I wish I would be able to have it taken off too.
    Good for you for keeping positive.
    emoticon emoticon
    1799 days ago
  • CHERYLL1949
    1799 days ago
    Thanks for sharing and offering encouragement to the rest of us. emoticon
    1799 days ago
    Your attitude is wonderful!
    1799 days ago
  • GINA180847
    You do look very good anyway. I guess clothing can hide a multitude of defects. My husband is in your position and will have to save any surgery for medical emergencies. Recently he started to take levadopa for his shake (not Parkinsons) in Mexico. The Dr. here says Mexican Drs. are more courageous. It was a tough call because Charlie has a multitude of things wrong with him and we had to really think long and hard about dealing with the shake. He could have perished but didn't and now he is able to write his name again. But it was a gamble.
    1799 days ago
    When life hands you lemons, make lemonade. Your attitude is wonderful.

    Have a great day.
    1799 days ago
    emoticon all the best for the best we can be
    1799 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.