As I wrote in my last blog, I reached my goal weight and I've roughly maintained it within +/- 5lbs for about 1.5 years now. Yesterday I had my blood pressure taken and it was 115/56. Score! Low end of normal. Starting point was 138/86. The longer I stay at a healthy weight, the better my vitals become. The body heals if you give it proper care. I've slowly reversed the damage I caused. I achieved my primary objective of better health and lifestyle. But now what?
One reason why I'm baffled about what to do next is because I never thought I'd get here. 13 years ago I became obese with over 40% bodyfat. After years of yo-yo dieting and losing weight only to watch it rebound, at some point I mentally believed I would never reach goal weight. Maybe I was too old, or my metabolism too damaged.
Then 1.5 years ago, I finally connected all the pieces I need to finish the job. I went from size 8 to roughly a size 4/6. And I reached goal weight! There are seasonal fluctuations, so I give myself a +/- 5 lb margin. If my weight starts creeping up, I clean up my eating immediately. If I average my weight over a long period of time, it comes out to my goal weight of 125.
I thought I would be happy enough. I chose that number because it was my college weight before I became obese. The thing is, my body doesn't quite match what I remember. I fit into my college jeans, so my size must be roughly the same. I swear that I had a flatter runway down my abs, though.
Is it skin stretching? Is it bloating? Is it a difference in body composition? I never took a body fat percentage reading before I gained weight.
While I've reached my goal weight, it's not the body shape I want. I can't set a weight goal because I have no idea what I will weigh with the body composition I want. I can't set a bodyfat % because that isn't clear either. Based on my current bodyfat % and weight, I have 92lbs of lean mass (muscle, organs and blood). If I weighed 115 with 20% bodyfat, I would have 92lbs of lean mass. If I weighed 135lbs with 20%, I would have 108lbs of lean mass. If I weighed 115 at my current composition, I'm not sure that would give me the shape I want either.
I don't have a reference point, so I don't know where to point my compass. I'll just have to hoist my sails and see where the wind takes me.
How did you pick your goal weight? If you reached it, was your body shape what you expected it to be?