Thanks to all of you that shared good words with me yesterday. After all that, when I went to the doctor, despite the logging, and the fitness, my weight was more at the doctor's office than one month ago.
Then I had an aha moment.
Although I have been exercising, and losing some inches, I really have not pushed my intervals to sweating yet. I tend to have some fear to get there. I will get over it. Anyway, the aha moment: I may be building more muscle and not getting rid of the fat, that may be why it is showing as a weight gain. Ahh! Even my wii fit this morning was telling me I gained. Humbug.
I am pressing on.
After the doctor appointment, I went to look at the blenders and scales, and ended up leaving without them, preferring to wait for a time my dh will be with me, as we usually make decisions together. In fact, most of what I intended to buy I put back, except for a few clothes for my grandson, and Easter goodies for my sons. I was careful with what I bought that it would not tempt me to open them. I bought a small solid chocolate bunny for each, and peeps. No little eggs to bust open the bag and ravage.
When my dh went to the store today (I was exhausted after work and working on the bills), he brought me home yogurt. I can't wait to have one, as my evening snack approaches, and I really am hungry.
I also realized my pedometer was tracking me in kilometers. No wonder I was so confused. I played with it til I got it fixed.
Other good news: the biopsy done during the outpatient surgery came back normal - just a polyp. Happy dance. So he did the pap while he was there. Clean bill of health AND my blood pressure was really really good. That is a nice non-scale measure of better health.
Also, we get to see my grandson on April 1, and it will be a home visit at our house!
Oh, and I almost forgot. I kept to my new healthy habit last night. I was off the computer by 8:30 p.m., and in bed by 12:05 midnight. And read a little from my Bible before I went to work this morning, and packed a healthy light lunch.
Going to go quickly track my food and stuff. Funny how quick my computer time goes, though I have spent hours on working bill stuff, not fun stuff.
One step at a time, one day at a time.
Getting healthy IS my job.