Thursday, March 21, 2013
This nudge identifying an area where I need to BLOSSOM came from reading DEBRA0818 's blog about binge triggers.
Thinking through several items on her list, I saw my own pattern for out-of-control eating: when food is free.
When stores have samples, when I'm visiting a friend, when I'm at a social event, whenever food is being "given away," I have an irrational feeling of needing to eat a lot, and to take some with me if feasible. I would call it a compulsion; the urge that grips me is very strong.
I know this comes from my childhood, but I am in my fifties. I choose to live in the present. I choose to open my eyes to reality.
Here is what I will tell myself before the grocery store, before a party, or before a visit:
"I am not a hungry child; I am a grown-up. I can buy healthy food for myself. I can choose not to eat this and I will be okay. God has promised to supply my needs. I choose to BLOSSOM into the security of my present life."
My meditation is from the 2nd Epistle to the Corinthians, ch. 4 verse 6:
"For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ."