Today is day 30 of my current streak!
My first streak started on March 1, 2012 and lasted for quite a long time..290 days! When it ended, I was disappointed, of course. I was really trying to keep that streak going for a solid year, but I fell short. I wasn't TOO disappointed, though. After all, staying on track for 290 days is a pretty big accomplishment, so I was really proud of myself for that. More importantly, I was proud of myself for getting myself right back on track and starting a new streak. My next streak only lasted 13 days, but once again when I got off track, I picked myself up and started over again right away. I kept reminding myself that its not a failure to get off track...but it WOULD be a failure to STAY off track.
Anyway, when I started my streak last year, I also started saving change in a coffee can. Its my new wardrobe fund! When I reach my goal size, I am going to do some shopping. Right now, I only own 2 pairs of jeans, lots of workout t shirts and a few pairs of workout pants. I'm fine with that, because other than going to the grocery store, I am pretty much a homebody.
But for the past year, I've been dreaming of the perfect wardrobe. Funny thing is, as the weight came off, my fantasy of the perfect wardrobe has really changed. For instance, when I first started streaking last year, I imagined that when I reached my goal, I would wear hoodies and jeans and loose tunic shirts. I even bought an "inspiration hoodie" in a smaller size. I thought it was so pretty....it was long and had a peony print on it. And it looked so good in the catalog that I ordered it from! I really looked forward to the day when it would fit me.
I would try that hoodie on from time to time but the closer it got to fitting me, the more I realized that I didn't like it anymore! It just wasn't my taste, after all. And it just seemed "too young" for me. I'll be 52 next month, and that hoodie seemed more appropriate for someone 20 years younger.
So what kind of clothing SHOULD I wear? What clothing would be age appropriate, and what is my taste in clothes now? I had no idea! Even though I'm not close to my goal size yet, I know that the day is coming when I WILL be there, and when that day arrives I want to be able to buy myself a new wardrobe that flatters me. So to get some tips and advice on clothes, I have started to watch the show on TLC, "What Not To Wear." They seem to mostly have women under the age of 35 on that show, but sometimes they do have women my age. I really STUDIED those episodes to see how to dress for my age, and I think I have learned a lot.
Well, this week I decided that even though I'm not at my goal size yet, I would buy myself one new item of clothing....a cardigan sweater! From watching What Not to Wear, I've learned that I need to buy a "basic" like that, and then jazz it up with a pretty print shirt under it. So off to the mall I went, planning to buy myself a pretty cardigan...maybe in teal or robins egg blue. Something not "plain", but still "basic."
The first store I went to was JC Penny's, and that was not a fun experience. It has been a long time since I've shopped at Penny's, but they have certainly changed a lot! The loud music they now play was just really off putting to me. I like a much quieter shopping experience! And wow....I'd forgotten how many clothes they have, lol. It was really overwhelming! I didn't know which direction to look in first. And I'm at that awkward size now. You know, the size thats in between plus and misses. And my upper arms are my trouble zone. Even in the past when I've been smaller, my upper arms were always big.
I headed to the plus size section first, and the only cardigans I could find there were horrible. Or at least not what I was looking for. Like the music, they were just too loud for me! Not basic at all. I did try a couple on, and they were too big. So then I headed to the misses section and a strange thing happened. I suddenly became very intimidated. I just stood there and looked at everything without actually picking anything up. I didn't try anything on. I guess this will sound strange but I was afraid someone would tell me "You don't belong in this section! Nothing here is going to be big enough for you!"
So I left Penny's without a cardigan. I went to Kohl's, and thankfully they didn't have music blasting so loud that I couldn't even think. I again went to the plus section to look at cardigans. They had some pretty ones in the right color, but they were too big and too expensive. I also looked in the Misses section and I managed to try on a few things. And it was so weird...some cardigans fit me, and some were too small....even though they were the exact same size! But you know what was sad? Instead of being proud of myself for fitting into some of those cardigans, I instead berated myself for the ones that DIDN'T fit. I felt bad about myself, and had to really give myself a talking to in order to snap out of it.
I ended up getting a black cardigan that had been marked down to 12 dollars. It wasn't exactly what I wanted, but it fit and it will be a good basic to go with anything. Its one of those cardigans that don't button or zip. I think it will fit me for a long time as I continue to lose weight and go down in sizes.
For my birthday next month, my mother in law will give me a $20 Kohl's gift card, as she always does. So I will use it to look for a shirt to wear under my cardigan! But I have to tell you, I'm not sure I'm looking forward to shopping again. If I had so much trouble just buying a cardigan, whats it going to be like to buy a shirt? Or for that matter, whats it going to be like when I reach my goal size and cash in the can of coins so I can go buy a whole bunch of new clothes? Where are Stacy and Clinton from What Not to Wear when you need them?
It would be so easy to just keep wearing workout pants and t shirts. But I'm not going to let myself do that. When I reach my goal size, I am going to reward myself with REAL clothes! I just wish I had a shopping buddy to help me out.