The Big Day Approaches
Thursday, March 21, 2013
As my goal date (April 1st) for my first weight goal approaches I'm filled with excitement and fear.
Fear of failing is ever present. I know that if I reach my goal a day later it will still be an incredible victory but it would be somewhat bittersweet. Last week I fluctuated but didn't really have much of a loss. This week I've managed to break through that rut and see some changes but will it be enough or will it simply be fluctuations at 1 pound lower? As the big day approaches I grow fearful and anxious because I feel the time running out. No the world won't end on April first, yes, I can still achieve my goal a day late and have met it...but it won't be the same.
I'm also truly excited for the big day. I could meet and incredible goal. I could have one of the greatest moments of my life. I could have a huge blast of motivation. And even if I don't meet my goal I can still look back on the last 3 months with pride. I want to save my reflection on that time for a later blog but, I have accomplished a lot to get to this point. Pounds aside, I have made some major life changes and that is worthy of celebrating. And celebrate I will, on April first.
I am a mix of emotions. With 11 days remaining, 2.4 lbs to go, I begin this day. And in this day, I will give it all I've got, to see my dreams come true.