Thursday, March 21, 2013
"The measure of a man's real character is what he would do if he knew he would never be found out." Thomas B. Macaulay
"...love yourself because you have a body and it's worth loving and it is perfect. Be healthy, which is perfect at whatever size healthy is and at whatever size happy is." Jen Larsen
I've been thinking a lot lately about how impatient I was for the past 5 months to dissolve the weight I had gained in an instant. And every time I got on the scale, my entire day could be uplifted or ruined based on the number I saw. I had absorbed, once again, the very limiting belief that my life would only be OK when I was at my goal weight, and that until then, I had to live in Hell.
But I've been realizing lately that I'm already there! Right now I can have all the goodness I thought was waiting for me at that magic date of getting to goal. Right now I can enjoy life, I can be present, I can focus, I can laugh with my daughter, I can see the goodness in my students, I can enjoy the flowers starting to bud.
And the more days I take care of myself (today is day 6!! Whoohoo!!), the easier it becomes. Not because the scale is going down (it keeps going up and down), but because I feel so much better when I take care of myself. And I have more energy, patience, I get better sleep, I enjoy my meals because I'm hungry before eating, my digestion is better, and so on and so on.
So though everyone has been saying this to me for a long time, I think the real trick to all of this is to realize that once we've made a decision to live better, we are there! Because I'm eating and exercising and sleeping the way I will for the rest of my life. So when I get to that goal weight, I'll have already been there anyway!
"Freshness, aliveness, and the sweetness of every single day are available to you--are you willing to make the effort to do what it takes to bring yourself here?" Geneen Roth