Thursday, March 21, 2013
This week is just crazy... I seems like life is just playing around with me and I can't do anything against it.
I did a great job with working out, eating healthy and sleeping well all week long. So actually I should be in a really good mood and life should be perfect... shouldn't it??
But NO... I feel like my whole life changed since yesterday evening. My host sister - she's also my best friend here in America - is about to get sent home... I'm just freaking out and don't know what to do!!! Another of my exchange friends is about to be sent home as well... I don't want to loose this girls!! I love them with all my heart and I don't know what I would do without them!!
Life is just no fair sometimes..... Yesterday EVERYTHING changed within just a few hours. It was just too much for me. I couldn't fall asleep for a long long time, even if I tried to read before going to bed to free my thoughts about all the messed up stuff that is going on... It will probably take until Monday, and afterwards I will know more about what's going to happen..
I'm just so scared right now!!!
At least I didn't eat out of stress yesterday, because if I'd have a downfall additional to all the other things going on it would probably completely freaking out... I feel like the only thing that's keeping me from loosing my mind is working out and to sweat out all the anger and worries...
So people, PRAY for my friends.... They're about to be punished for something they didn't do alone. I don't understand why single persons should take the responsibility for something stupid that EVERYBODY did & EVERYBODY was okay with.
Life is just not fair....smh...
I'll need a lot of energy right now, and I just hope that things are gonna be alright... I wished I'd know what's going to happen as soon as possible, so at least I would know what's going on..
Not to know what's happening is the worst...
Please, pray with me!!!!