Day Eleven: Being a "fat head"
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
One thing that I struggle with -- and I know other overweight people who have admitted to the same thing --- is an irrational fear that I won't be able to take the weight off no matter what I do.
Hey, intellectually, I know this is not true. Mentally, I know it's irrational! But that doesn't stop negative thoughts from bubbling up from my subconscious--thoughts that include, "You'll never lose weight so why bother;" or "You're post-menopausal with hypothyroid issues, this is a lost cause, just accept the fat."
If I stay with it long enough and lose some weight, this negativity dies down quite a bit, but for right now, it's annoying. Today was one of those days where I had this annoying, backseat driver voice offering negative opinions all day long.
Ugghhhh! Glad the day is over! I managed to get through it without overeating, but just barely. It took every bit of self-control that I could muster not to go into a class one pig out!
Tomorrow is another day! Hopefully it will be better than today!