Rereading through my previous blogs, I can't for the life of me understand why I'm having such a hard time to recommit to this. I come here, refocus and I'm good for a couple of weeks then everything falls through the cracks. I'm sure not to impress with myself that's for sure. My intentions are true but my commitment is weak. I keep telling myself today I start but then I don't. It's been a rough year so far. I've banged my knee very badly at the end of January, and it's just now healed properly for me to do a proper work out. Top it off I believe I've pulled a tricep muscle in my arm. February was hard for me emotionally. Just wasn't a good month. Now I seem to be suffering health wise because of my like of proper nutrition and proper exercise. My energy is low, and I've been fighting the sniffles for the past 2 weeks. I know with proper nutrition and exercise my energy will get better. It's the commitment thing again.

One thing I did notice was that I've been eating more vegetables. Sadly, the fruits didn't fare as much. This I am bound to change. Sometimes buying fresh fruits is expensive and difficult as I find that I don't eat them fast enough before they go bad. I've bought some frozen fruits from time to time and I think I'll go that route. At least I will be able to enjoy fruits without worrying of them going bad.

I'm also trying to experiment with meal recipes. I get bored easily and I find that it's one of the reason I fall through the cracks as I eat the same thing over and over in order to be healthy. Between the recipes with Sparkpeople and the ones I find on Pinterest, I can try some recipes and tweak them in a way to make them healthier. Not having the opportunity to learn how to cook when I was younger(my mother was the cook in the family and that's all there was to it where she was concerned), cooking is a challenge for me. Some experiments that I've experienced with wasn't the best such as cake pops and chocolates. This week I decided enough was enough and I brought that stuff to work and gave it to my co workers. I am lucky to have what we call a "Mikey" department. They will eat everything. They saved me from eating more than I really should. I ate too much of it already. Those guys were happy and said that they were delicious. Oh I knew that, having "sample" the lot.

I guess it starting from the beginning. Starting from scratch. I will take the time to get my body healed properly inside and out. I'll start with the out. I will take a brake from the workout until the cold like symptoms go away and my arm feels better. In the meantime I will set up a good healthy meal menu for me with lots of variety, and not too complicated to make. I want some that will include plenty of vegetables, grains as well as fruits. The big thing for me is the commitment. I really have to work harder on this.

Until then.