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The Biggest Loser & Why I feel so STUCK


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

emoticon For all of five minutes while watching The Biggest Loser with my husband I thought, I could do that, let me do that! I daydreamed of this perfect body and a quarter of a million dollars to buy a house ... and then I thought, if I can't motivate myself to really start my weight loss program at home how the hell would I be able to find motivations there? Getting yelled at by some skinny loudmouth? That would just make me angry, just make me want to punch something. Yea, I respond surprisingly well to anger but STILL, that lady is rather scary. Then there is the commitment to 5mo of filming. Ok. Yea, 5 months without my kids? NOT happening.

So why am I not doing more here, at home? Why do I keep making escuses and pushing it off and pushing it off? I don't need a perfect plan, a perfect house full of perfect food. I need to get off my fat lardy white arse and DO SOMETHING.

I think I am afraid of change. I think somewhere inside of me I am AFRAID of being thin. Why? Why am I afraid of being something new? I deserve new. I deserve better. And I keep telling myself that and I keep reaching for a box of thinmints and a cigarette. I am discouraged. God help me, I need to change!
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SCUBAMUM 3/21/2013 9:42AM

    I think you have hit on your best motivation yourself - you can't imagine being away from your kids for 5 months. How "present" are you, though, if you're feeling uncomfortable in your own skin. You're obviously already a caring parent - imagine what a difference you could make in your kids' lives if you were strong and healthy and saw yourself as a great role model.

I agree with DittyDotty1 - Don't worry about perfection. Find one tiny change that you can make today, some small good habit to introduce (maybe drinking 8 glasses of water or doing just 10 minutes of exercise or eating one extra piece of fruit or vegetable). Make it something you absolutely KNOW you can accomplish. When you've accomplished that, tell yourself that you've taken one good step to being the best parent you can be. Then, try again tomorrow. Once that one thing becomes a habit, find another small thing to add.

I do hope this helps! I have felt EXACTLY as you do now, but that was 30 lbs worth of tiny steps ago. emoticon

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DWROBERGE 3/21/2013 4:23AM

    Keep focused for success. You can do it. Go for it.

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TXPATRIOT 3/21/2013 12:58AM

    I can totally relate to those feelings. God can help you change. I pray that you will overcome whatever fear is holding you back and that you will find the courage to pursue a new life.

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JANTWO 3/21/2013 12:42AM

    I agree that you have already taken the first step. emoticon

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DITTYDOTTY1 3/20/2013 11:06PM

    You have already taken the first step! It is a huge commitment to change your life and it is scary but writing it down and owning it is a good start.

Best advice I ever got here was "Baby Steps". Take it one day at a time and good luck. emoticon

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