Wednesday, March 20, 2013
So, after yesterday' "cheat" day...today I am back on track...but not back on THE track!!!
That is the part that pains me the most.
I can remember back in around November when the weather began to get cold, and the dark came earlier...I went thru the seasonal depression of knowing I wasnt going to be able to walk like I had been.
But, whenever the weather did allow and I could, I was at the track for my hour....loving every minute.
Then Jan 8th, everything changed....I broke my foot...and when the doctor said possibly 6 weeks of no walking...imagine my disappointment!!
But that was 10 weeks ago....and I still am unable to walk...still in the boot and still depressed.
But not defeated!!!
I know my time to get back to the track will resume...hopefully soon.
I am doing as much as I can to try to help that along, taking superduper high doses of vitamin d to try to help the bone heal...wearing my boot and even taking the doctors advice not to ride my bike much due to putting un needed pressure down on that foot...
I have, I admit, used it as an excuse not to exercise as I should and to feel sorry for myself.
But, there are no excuses for eating poorly and falling into old, BADDDDD habits....
So, I am resolved to get back to my calories...to eat veggies and get my water and lift weights if that is all I can do....stretch bands from the chair, and whatever I can do to add activity points and burn whatever calories I can burn!!!!
Today is the first day of Spring....a day I had so looked forward to...but, its cold and windy here...the sun is out but does little good.
I am still going to the tanning bed and using it to try to add some light....and getting a nice little tan in the meantime.
I am looking forward to my next blood test to see if my vitamin d has increased...eating fish and greens and drinking milk to no end, mushrooms and orange juice....
And just looking forward to the next chapter in my life.
Last night I had dinner with my two oldest friends, Pam and Barb...we have all been friends since grade school and have at times, drifted apart, one or the other of us, but, we find our way back and last night my friend commented on how we are all 45...saying it with dread and sadness...
Well, after thinking about it some, I decided so whattttttt!!!!
45 doesnt equal dead....its just a new time, a new phase...I am ready to see what it brings....aside from menopause and looser skin and grayer hair....I am the same person inside...a little wiser????
I dont know.....but I look forward to my life now...I cant wait til I can get back to walking and back to losing pounds....I havent given up on that....I know I still have along road ahead....and I hope my foot heals so I can get to walking that road soon!!!!