Wednesday, March 20, 2013
As I continue on my weight loss journey, one of the things I find I really love is how clothes fit on me.
Clothes serve two functions - decency and personality. Society stops letting us run around naked after we are about 5, so we must wear clothes. So clothes are a necessity. But also, clothes let us tell a story about ourselves - are we fun and flirty? Are we music fans? Do we like intricate needlework? Are we crafty and make our own clothes? Are we nerdy? A simple thing like a trip to the mall can give people an idea about our personality.
Before I lost weight, I had to shop in the "Women's" (AKA "Plus Size" AKA "Old Fat Woman's Section"). (As a side note, isn't it sad how "Women's" can be so easily associated with "Plus Size"?) The clothes in this section weren't me at all; the colors were muted and dark. The styles were tent-like and shapeless. The fabrics were boring and uninspired. I tried to shop in mall boutiques designed for plus-sized women, but I hated paying over $60 for a blouse (yeah, I'm cheap like that).
For years and years, I dealt with it. I tried to make my in-between clothes fit, but some of the shirts weren't long enough to cover my belly. I bought the old, ugly clothes, all the while hating how I looked.
Now that I've lost almost 60 pounds, I can see how I continued the cycle. I was fat, didn't look nice, what was the point of good eating and slimming down when you looked like that? Thank God I got a health wake-up call.
Fast forward to today. I can go shopping and find fun clothes in all sorts of styles and shapes and sizes and fabrics! It's a joy to go shopping. I can find stuff that reflects my personality - bright pink for spring time fun, nice fitting jeans to show off my curves (and not mounds of fat, curves!), modest v-necks which show a nice neck and smooth skin, green that showcases the color of my eyes. Finally, I feel like "ME" is coming out! Finally, I feel like I am dressing the person that has been hiding under the fat!
This has been a great motivation for continuing my journey. In the beginning, it was tough, because I really didn't see much change. I wore the same size 18 or 20 jeans for probably two months until they almost literally fell off my butt! And then I was like, "OMG, I am no longer a size 18!"
I've been going through my clothes ever since I started slimming out of them, but this weekend is my big "spring cleaning" for my closets. And I can't wait to take out some of those old, ill-fitting ugly garments!!