Wednesday, March 20, 2013
I'm tired of trying to lose weight. I'm tired of revamping my pantry and fridge every 6 months or so to comply with the rules of a new diet. I'm tired of trying to remember the rules of a new diet! I no longer want to commit to 30 minutes a day 3 times a week (once with a trainer and twice from home - as if that last one would happen) strength training in an effort to make my back look better or my arms shrink. I don't want to set a target date for my "goal weight" and then get discouraged when I don't lose 2 lbs (or even 1 lb) every week. I don't want to weigh in every week and decide how "good" or "bad" I was based on that number.
This time, my goal will not be weight loss. I have spent years in my body and love me. I am a generally happy person. I am smart. I am kind. I look for the best in others and in situations. I am a good mother and a good wife. I do not need to be a certain size or shape to be any of that. Changing my size and shape will not change any of that. If I WERE an unhappy, miserable person to be around, changing my size and shape STILL would not change any of that.
I love my family and they love me. I want to be able to play with them, go places with them (even if it's crawling through tight tunnels at the St. Louis City Museum or a cave), and be here long enough to offer my children's some-day children the same. For this, I need to stay healthy. I have talked to my husband and my children. They don't care if I never drop a size below my current 20. They don't care if I jump up to 24. They DO care about me staying healthy.
This time I am not going to keep to a strict "do this, don't do that" set of diet rules. We don't have the "nutrition rules" in this country, we have "guidelines". I am going to use those guidelines to make better choices. I'm going to choose to eat more fruits and vegetables. They taste good and my body knows what to do with these whole foods. I'm going to choose leaner protein sources more times than not. I'm going to indulge in desserts occasionally, but will plan these splurges and appreciate each bite rather than waiting till I'm beyond hungry and eating stale cookies just because they're there.
And exercise....how I still loathe that word! I am going to try for more movement. I may not get the recommended 10,000 steps each day or 3-5 times a week of cardio or 3 times a week of strength training. But I am going to choose to walk over and get my own coffee (even though my assistant would gladly do this for me). I'm going to walk inside to order food rather than sit in a drive thru and burn gas instead of calories. I'm going to start small and work on running a 5k, even if that means I walk a little of it.
A funny thing happens when you start doing nice things for your body...heartburn disappears, sleep is longer and deeper, you stand a little taller, you feel less bloated, you WANT to move your body, you don't have food cravings as much as you did. And weightloss follows. Nine pounds for me, in the past two weeks, when I wasn't looking because I was too busy moving and enjoying real foods!