I wasnít certain what to write about today. I have a sweatshirt story but didnít feel right. I could complain as people who know better are REALLY driving me crazy. But that can be summed up quite easily Ė I donít BS and you know it! Iím blunt and Iím going to tell it like it is (or at least from my perspective). If this offends you, you want a ďniceĒ answer, or you donít want me to possibly point out the obvious Ė donít ask me the question! Duh! That just seems short and may-haps a bit snarky!
Then I actually LOOKED at what was cycling on my computer screen. The quote that was up at the moment was:
Now that makes me think. See even though I'm talking a good talk here, deep down I'm mad at myself. Mad that I regained 13 lbs. Mad that I have no willpower over Cadbury eggs. Mad that I'm not doing as much as I KNOW I'm capable of. And I've been using some of those words during my internal dialog. Why?
I was going to write about seeing my closest friend for the first time in a few weeks. We went for a walk and then gave up because it was cold. She was berating herself the entire time about how much weight she gained and I felt like a wimp for giving in to the cold. Why?
Now someone might have all the pyscho-babble about nurture and habits and training. Yeah ok, maybe. I hated my psych class and Freud is just a type of slip (that is usually quite funny to everyone around you). All of that does NOTHING for me. I swear if you dig far enough you can fine a way to blame your mom's first boyfriends dog. BLECH!
Remember that comment up top about being blunt - here it comes. We do it because we are chicken! We put ourselves down because if we told the truth we would have to admit that we know our greatness. We know we have strength and power. We know we are awesome. And if we admit that, we have NO ONE to blame but ourselves. WE have to take full responsibility for who we are and where we are at in life. OUCH!!!
As humans we also use a lot of if--,then-- statements. If I was pretty, then everyone would like me. Yeah that's a big stinking pile of cow dung! Most of our if--,then-- statements are. They make no sense or they rely on measuring the un-measurable. Good grief.
You know what we all have our niche and in that place we are pretty, valuable, intelligent, a winner, superior, healthy, loved, and happy. Admit it and you can achieve anything.