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Back to Square One

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Yesterday, I blew it. I was doing great all weekend until I got extremely frustrated and cheated on my diet Monday late afternoon. Yup, I turned to food, again, to ease my frustrations. I even resolved not to cheat the other day, and blew it anyway. I focus so much on me and my feelings that I lose sight of why I am doing this and who I need to lean on when these moments come, namely the Lord. Anyway, I am going to try this again as I am back to square one. How embarrassing, depressing, and frustrating. This is the behavior that keeps me fat. I know exactly what to do to loose this weight; I just can’t stick to the plan. Will this weight ever come off?
Today’s weight: 220 lb.

3 Week Goals from 3/19 to 4/9 :
1. Stick to the nutrition plan I wrote out daily.
2. Stick to my workout plan I wrote out daily.
3. Drink 96oz of water and green tea daily.
4. Diligently track my food and stay within my calorie range and nutrition plan with NO unplanned meals.
5. Train 180 minutes with 3 KB swing sessions of 20 minutes and 6 strength training sessions of 20 minutes.

Today’s Goals:

20 min KB Rows, 6 reps

96 oz water and iced green tea

1200 cals low carb

Tomarrow’s Goals:
KB Swings, 13 reps OTM for 20 min
96 oz water and iced green tea
1200 cals low carb

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
STAY39 3/20/2013 11:26AM

    One bad day does not = failure!! You are so focused and self aware. It's mostly a good thing but can be a bad thing because you are so hard on yourself if you "slip up". Give yourself a break! This is a lifestyle change- not a race to a "fat free finish line". Please try to focus on how good you feel with your consistent workouts. I'am afraid of how rigid your plan is (ie. no unplanned meals for 3 weeks). I know you know what is best for your body but I don't want you to set goals that may be too unrealistic. Baby steps girl!! You will get there! emoticon

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DEBBY4576 3/19/2013 10:49PM

    At least you know you can start again. Don't give up. It's giving up that keeps us fat.

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63KEEPONGOING 3/19/2013 10:23PM

  Hey there team member, when you are feeling frustrated go to your partner and share your frustrations or send me a note. It was that same day that I had to go to Leslyanna and she made me laugh, laugh, and laugh again. Even after getting up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom, I started laughing.
You are going to have those rought times and want to indulge, (me too)but remember we have each other on our team (all 84 of us).
Now, don't be sooooo hard on yourself; forgive yourself, for tomorrow is always a new day with new hope.
And you are right, we do have our Lord. I claim Philippians 4:13 I CAN do ALL thing THROUGH CHRIST which STRENGTHENTH me. Not only do I say it, I believe it.
You can do this Trinity, be determined and picture yourself losing pound by pound and the clothes getting looser, looser, and emoticon BAGGY! Enjoy each step of progress.

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CASTIRONLADY 3/19/2013 8:00PM

    Ok, you can start over today or any minute of the day and choose more wisely. You are doing great to blog honestly. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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LOOKINGUP2012 3/19/2013 4:29PM

    I think it's hard to get the balance of cardio and nutrition. I can't believe everyone burns the same amount of calories. I find a walk with prayer while I'm walking eases my frustration. One mile is good. Two, I'm smiling again. Next day, great. Best wishes emoticon emoticon

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ALWAYSFROG247 3/19/2013 2:30PM

    Trinity1 - I can totally relate to your "Square 1" position! I hope my story encourages you. I am on my sixth attempt (I think?) at permanent weight loss and my second Spark journey. I had a wake-up call to start this journey recently when one day I discovered my pants were getting too tight and all the promises I made to myself before came flooding back along with the guilt, shame, anger, and frustration. No, I'm not happy with where I'm at but my best quality is that I always get back up again. I may lay down for a while but I eventually get back up.

The most important thing is to forgive yourself for letting you down and move on. Hope this helps!

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MOMMAGINI 3/19/2013 1:56PM

    Trinity, you need to be a little less hard on yourself! You slipped up, sure - we all do. But you can't expect perfection from anyone, including yourself. You are a believer - would Jesus offer forgiveness for our sins if He expected us never to commit any? He forgives you, and you must do the same.

To quote the kids from a few years ago: WWJD? He would forgive, learn from it, and move on. Now, you slipped up because you were stressed out. Can you learn something from it to help you out the next time? Recognize the signs before it gets so bad you reach for the comfort food? Have another method ready to calm/soothe/distract yourself when it does get that bad?

Keep on trying, you CAN do this!!!


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PJ2222 3/19/2013 1:06PM

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