Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Well...the flu, or something like it, has attacked the office. The only thing I ran over the weekend was a temperature - and I stayed home from work yesterday to rest. Sunday night I fell asleep around 6:30pm and didn't wake up until 6:30am - I woke up for about a half an hour (to take my temperature and determine whether my sore throat was just that icky-waking up feeling or really being sick) - called into work and went back to sleep until around noon.
So - I slept for about 16 or 17 solid hours! (I feel like I could take another nap right now.)
I dragged myself to work this morning - no longer feverish, just shivery and tired (still tired!) - and learned that my supervisor has come down with the same darn thing that I have -only possibly worse because her immune system is so shot from the cancer meds she has to take.
I have the greatest respect for Cherie - she is so wise and I hope someday that I will be half as tactful, experienced, and gracious as she is. However, she is a die-hard work-a-holic. Honestly, it is something like a God-complex because she has this fear that if she doesn't work, then the whole office is going to fall apart. It's all on her. (I wish I could do something to relieve her of that burden.)
So, even when she is sick with a fever and sounds like death warmed over on the phone, she'll insist on 'getting on the computer' to check email and try to work a normal day. Our director doesn't help because she'll tell her to rest - but then send her questions and work even when she knows Cherie is sick.
I just got off the phone with her...and basically asked her why the heck she was calling me. Stop worrying about the email - you're sick. You're not going to get better without rest. Ignore calls from the other office - we can do without you for one day. Don't you dare get on your computer. If I come across something that I really can't manage on my own - I know I can call you. Stop worrying about me!
I'm having to recognize that I can't protect her from herself. If she chooses to work when she is sick - that's on her. It's frustrating for me because I know she will keep pushing herself even when she needs the rest - but I have to recognize that she is the one pushing herself.
At the same time, I have to be mindful of my choices and choose to rest when I know I need it. (This is hard, because I have a work-a-holic streak - and it is so hard not to adopt a work-a-holic attitude when you are working for a work-a-holic!) But I will not feel guilty for taking the day off yesterday - I will continue to make good choices for myself. I can't change Cherie's attitude toward work - I can only monitor my own.
So - Cheers - here's to slogging through the day and trying to make good choices.