Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Well, I am back and more motivated than before. I am now 20 pounds heavier than my highest weight in the past. I have learned that this extra weight has affected me in more ways than I realized until recently. I've been tired, lacked motivation, hate myself and my body and just plain down in the dumps mood wise. Its interesting to me that I want to be healthy and move more but the weight saps my energy and works against my goals for the day. Its so much easier to sit at home, watch TV and over eat than it is to get up off my spreading butt :) and hit the gym or prepare a healthy meal. I made a plan yesterday to go to my first ever water aerobics class. With the help of my friend Ellen, I went and did the class. I was at Zero hour and texting my friend to see if she still wanted to go, hoping with my fingers crossed she'd say no so I could go home and eat some fast food. But to my horror, she said yes! Can you believe it? I had to show up and do it. For once I followed through. I enjoyed the class thoroughly and have made plans to go back again. I find when I am being held accountable, I show up and do what I need to do. As a result I'm going to try and make more plans with friends to meet up for work outs/walks so I can't make excuses to myself. I'm also going to work on coming up with ways to defeat all my excuses and negative self talk. I'm looking forward to the journey ahead.