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Me Vs. Food: VICTORY

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Tuesday, March 19, 2013

A massive learning curve for me on this journey has been the conscious acceptance that not everything I eat has to be magnificent. But before I go on, let me stop and explain two things about the statement I've just made:
1) When I say 'magnificent' I mean fantastic. I mean fabulous. I mean fantabulous. I mean a meal or snack tasty and filling, mouth-watering and leaves you wanting more. I could go on for hours but I'm guessing that the majority of my audience here understands.
2) I very specifically chose the words 'conscious acceptance' as opposed to 'realisation' there. A realization, it seems, it not the right word. If you had asked me a year ago 'does everything you eat need to be a delicious, delectable delight?', my answer would of course have been 'no'.
But, to return to my statement, I've come to understand, that- possibly for my entire life- my actions in this area have not reflected my opinion.
I think I've spent most of my life waiting for my next meal. That's not by any means to say that I 'live to eat' as the hideous phrase goes. I have lived, and continue to live, a full and fulfilling life on many levels, including career, family, friends, love, travel, good times, etc. etc. ad nauseum.
However, what I now understand is that when the time for food did arise, whether it be snack and full meal, I never wanted to miss out. I wanted every bit of food I put into my mouth to be as wonderful as the last. I love food, and spent a great deal of time trying to work out how I could top what I last ate.
The range I consumed was great- I have never (okay, maybe for a year or two during college years) been much of a fast food eater or soda guzzler. My downfall has been a variety of worldly cuisines- Thai curries, Indian breads, Chinese dumplings, German sausages, french pastries, local cheeses, Italian wines...I could go on and on.
The main point is that once I got in the rhythm of instant-food-gratification, I would never miss out. As long as I could afford it and had time to obtain it, I could consume it.
So, you ask- what's changed now?
Well, I've had this epiphany, haven't I? I have registered in my consciousness that my hard work with exercise and calorie counting was often sabotaged by the deep-seated inner need to never let a meal time go to waste with crap boring food. Even though I've already lost 19 kilos and I have largely taken control of the hunger beast, it was just today that as I lifted my spoon of dull old butternut pumpkin supermarket soup (nothing against pumpkins or soup, just against supermarkets) to my mouth in the lunch room at work my only thoughts were 'This'll get me through the afternoon. Looking forward to roast chicken on the weekend though!'
And BANG! There is was- my moment. I had seen an actual clear and recognizable change in my thought pattern and behaviour. Where once I would have been throwing my soup, along with the best intentions, into the bin and running out for a sushi, salami sandwich or samosa, I contently chowed down the offending soup, happy in the knowledge that there would be fine food in the future, but just not in this minute.
For many, this may seem small time- but for someone who has won so many battles, but ultimately is always behind in the war with food, this is one big victory.  

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
NASHROSS 4/1/2013 11:25PM

    You have done a great job articulating the thought pattern a lot of us have with ourselves everyday.

As soon as I begin counting calories, I immediately want to eat the most unhealthy of food, as if it's going to disappear if I don't. (French fries call my name!)
Our weird little minds!
Congrats on your success thus far! Keep it up! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EL-E-E 3/27/2013 9:01AM

    Very interesting. I think I'm nearly there -- recognizing good (boring) foods as good fuel, instead of wanting something tastier, creamier, more delicious every time. I'll use that thought when I eat my lunch today (whole wheat wrap with turkey and LF cheese, and a bag of baby carrots: super-boring! No mayo or Ranch! Sigh.)

Thanks for the good idea.


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FIRECOM 3/25/2013 3:35PM

    My eating has always been "aimless" and I just ate because the food was there. There were yeas where I swear that I was NEVER hungry. Thanks for a great read.

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LILCOFFEEBEAN83 3/22/2013 11:26PM

    emoticon your post gives me some things to think about.... thank you. Good luck.

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SLIMTHICK2 3/22/2013 6:24PM

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KLONG8 3/22/2013 1:09PM

    Boy, I never thought of it that way. I think you're on to something here.

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WORKNPROGRESS49 3/22/2013 9:08AM

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GRAMPIAN 3/22/2013 7:04AM

  Very well done! emoticon

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MISHKIN 3/21/2013 9:43PM

    Yep, I have come to the same realization. We tend to subconsciously use food to comfort, just by choosing the tastiest morsels for our enjoyment. Once we can get into the mindset of the foods purpose of fueling our bodies then that is half the battle. But there are so many wonderful recipes available on the web for nutritious AND tasty fare, you really don't have to eat bland boring food!

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UWPALUM 3/21/2013 4:11PM

    You've got a great way of looking at the situation! I might have to work on adopting that attitude as well.

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PIPSANDMSMAMA79 3/21/2013 3:36PM

    Nice :) Well written. emoticon

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KACEYSW 3/21/2013 2:54PM

    emoticon and you are doing it one day, one meal at a time!

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SCRAPBECCA 3/21/2013 2:37PM

    Love those light bulb moments! emoticon

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MISSFLISS86 3/21/2013 10:09AM

    Well done you! I find it is often the hard part, waiting for what we "know" to click in our brains, but it sounds like you're definitely getting over that hurdle!

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SLIM153 3/21/2013 7:44AM

    emoticon To Your Victory Moment! May there be many more!! emoticon

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ROSE284 3/21/2013 7:00AM

    That's great!

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LIFETIMER54 3/21/2013 4:32AM


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ZRIE014 3/19/2013 1:19AM

  keep you mind off it and at arms length

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