When I was at the peak of my weight loss and for most of my early maintenance period, I could have never imagined not having a daily calorie deficit. Now I an having a hard time reaching this goal. It is such a crazy thought. I know before I was a little crazy. I had gone a little too far. All my family, friends and doctor were saying it was time to gain some of the weight back. I couldn't even fathom that idea. Gain weight back, but then I did. It was easier than I hoped. I have gained about 20-25 pounds back. I know that I needed to gain about 15 of it back, the other 10 were the result of liking the extra eating just a bit too much. Now that it is time for me to reign back in I am finding it harder than I want it to be. Luckily I haven't lost my love of exercise, if I stopped that too I would be doomed. Do now it is time for me to be a little more on the restrictive side. I also need to figure out what my healthy weight is. I know that it wasn't 135 pounds, but I'm not sure that I like 155-160 either. It is much easier to maintain but it is also easier to be too relaxed at this weight. Luckily times are always changing. I am learning as I go, and as long as I keep trying I am doing great!