So...I really thought that song said "Time may change me, but I can't change time" and "Turn and face the strange." In reality it is "Time may change me, but I can't trace time" and "Turn and face the strain." I'm a dork! I wasn't born in the Google age, so for those of you like me...we improvised to what we thought we heard! I think I like my lyrics better! J/K! LOL!
Anyways...so big, huge changes. I am moving this Thursday. I am going to a neighborhood that I feel a bit more safe in. I was noticing that I was not going to the gym, or anywhere for that matter, after sunset because I had a lot of fear. And, in the past month or so, the petty crime (burglary, assault, break-ins, mugging, etc) in my city have seemed to increase. I just don't feel safe. The new zip code I am moving to is directly giving me a $400 annual decrease in my car insurance. Well, that should tell me something! So, my apartment is torn apart right now, half packed. It is bittersweet. I do love my actual apartment, I just don't like where it is...the neighborhood.
So that is one thing.
The second Ch-Ch-Ch-Change is I got a new J-O-B! Woo hoo! I was a bit of an emotional mess last week because the offer I initially received was not what I had talked to the CFO about. So, I actually declined. Twice. It was a mis-communication and they counter-offered me this past Friday! Of course I told them I wanted to think about it over the weekend. (I knew I would take it). But, if you know me at all, you know I am a bit, spiritual and believe in non-traditional things. This Sunday ended Mercury Retrograde (2/24-3/17), in which you aren't supposed to sign any contracts during. Even people who are non-spiritual believe in this...and if you have had a rough couple of weeks, technology going haywire, people being out of sorts, etc., you can blame it on Mercury Retrograde! LOL! Anyways, I signed my new lease this morning, as well as accepted my job offer. I pick up the keys tomorrow and move on Thursday morning. I start my new job on April Fools Day! Let's hope that's not a sign!
I can tell you the single best thing I did this year was attend a spiritual retreat in Phoenix. It was more on the New Age-y side...but I finally came to terms with the fact that I am a very spiritual person, I do believe in Angels and miracles, I have tons of faith in others but rarely keep any for myself....which led me to exactly where I am today. The "me" a few months ago would have never valued myself enough to decline three various job offers (yes, this last one was the third), much less decline the job I wanted because of the $, or lack thereof. I think I am learning that I am valuable, that I can do great things, that I am an asset to any company I work for. I know I can always be replaced, but I think this was the Universe's way of challenging me to stand up and believe in myself and my abilities.
I gave my notice today...My current boss responded as if I was telling him that I bought a new pair of shoes. It was very nonchalant and seemed to be very unimportant to him. I have been there just under six years. He didn't thank me at all, or tell me really...anything. In fact, he tried to take credit for it by telling me that he had told a manager two years ago that I needed something like this. Bizarre. It also doesn't help that he is family on top of that. This just confirmed that moving on is the right thing for me.
Thank you to all of you that have been supportive over the last two years. Your words of encouragement and kindness have meant a lot to me!
Now, if I can just stop eating my emotions! (Yes, sugar monster happened yesterday. In control today, but doesn't help that all of my kitchen is packed and I can't cook right now!).
All I can tell myself is that I will do the best I can this week. I will also try to live in the present, not the future or the past. =)