Confession of Fear
Monday, March 18, 2013
About a month ago, while my Mom was in the hospital, I went for my mammogram. That evening I had a call saying they needed me to come in for additional views and a sonogram. The films confirmed 3 lumps on my left breast. The fear that was sparked with that phone call was now a raging inferno. This is not a first time for me. Two other times I had the same issue. Luckily, this was not the "c" word then. The first time I found out I am susceptible to fibroid cysts of the breast. Both times previously I had the fluid removed from the cyst by needle aspiration. I laughed it off saying I was getting my boob deflated. The fluid was checked and there were no issues there. I'm sure this is another instance like before, but in the back of my mind is the inferno of fear. This is something that runs in my family. My Mom and sister have also had issues. The cysts are very painful. I have an appointment this Wednesday with a surgical oncologist. I hope to have these things taken care of and get deflated again. Until then I will deal with the fear by pushing myself with my workouts! I'm not posting this blog as a call for sympathy, but instead it is my way of hopefully getting this off my mind for a while!!