I am trying really hard to stay calm right now and not let my emotions eat everything. Cuz that is where I turn when stress hits. But where will that get me? no where that's where. Ok so thru all this baby trying I knew I had to start my copay for maternity ahead of getting pregnant. Yes I did know this. I tried pushing it off cuz my insurance doubles in price when I add it on. But yesterday we looked at how far ahead you need to start it. 365 days ahead of getting pregnant, that is when you have to start it. I repeat 365 days ahead, ok i repeat once more 365 days ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ohh my god when I found this out my heart sunk, like just sunk to the ground. So I thought, hey maybe other plans are 6 months? Nope my only other option is also 365 days. I guess you can look at this way. You wont buy a house and get home insurance and burn it down the next day. You should wait 365 days to burn it down, of course! So yeah I have no idea what my options are. I could start this 365 day process and sink 300 a month into it. I could wait for Obama's Mother Child hc to pass which is supposed to start 2014 but who the hell knows if it will. I could wait and hope my husband likes his new job enough and get hc in 3 months thru him, which i still donno is possible. I could try calling the hospitals and see if they have plans which I heard they usually have mother baby packages that run 3-5k but that means everything goes smoothly and if not your probably screwed. So yes I am trying really hard not to let me emotions eat the fridge and possibly one of my dogs. If only we made a little less and I was unmarried I would be set. But since I am married and trying the best I can with 2 jobs, no baby for me anytime soon.