Monday, March 18, 2013
I have been sleeping for the past two days. When I'm not sleeping, I'm dropping everything on the floor - my food, my coffee, everything. Any I've been angry. Explosive angry. It's not good.
I think starting this therapy has opened a can of worms. I need to find a way to cope.
Since I woke up this afternoon, I've been dizzy. Not blacking out dizzy, but close. Foggy. I'm having a lot of trouble concentrating.
I'm really not doing well. Tonight I got Hubby to chop the veggies - I honestly am worried about cutting myself with the knife.
I am really having trouble staying grounded.
I have been eating a lot of Gluten Free breads and pastas for the past two days. I got a chance to go to the gluten free bakery in Regina on Saturday. I'm noticing how lousy I feel. It's so frustrating. I am craving breads again now.
I am thinking I need to focus on getting my nutrition back on track. Eating more freggies and cutting out breads and pastas again. Tonight supper is a step in the right direction - grilled tilapia, wild rice, steamed asparagus, and steamed broccoflower. There is enough for lunch tomorrow too.
I also have to start to move again. I know I can't run, but I need to start to try again. I will give myself a couple of days to get used to getting out the door and moving again before I expect my body to actually finish a run, but I need to get started. The half marathon is in 26 weeks.
I slept all day, so I'm thinking getting up an hour earlier might be possible tomorrow. I am going to try. Set my alarm earlier. Get dressed and get out the door. To make this work, I will need to lay out my clothes (both running and what I'm going to wear for the day), charge my GPS, Charge my MP3 player. Get the stuff to take Lulu together so I don't have to search. Fill up my water bottle. Get my lunch together tonight, so all I have to do is toss it into my lunch bag in the morning.
I made home made ice cream last night, so I have everything I need to make a smoothie in the morning. Maybe I'll do that too. Make it on my way out to work in the morning.
Sorry this is such a downer. I am really not in a good place. I need to focus on what I can do tonight to make this work better tomorrow. I have to have it all laid out - the less I need to think about it the better.
I hope you all are having a better start to your week.