A Painful Reality Check
Monday, March 18, 2013
A couple of weeks ago I posted about "suddenly" not fitting into my jeans. It was kind of a rude awakening for me. I weigh myself frequently, so I knew that I had gained weight over the last two years. I'd also recently done my measurements and seen the effect of sliding away from regular weight training. But attempting to slip on those jeans was the first time I just hadn't been able to get something on.
When I first started losing my 100+ pounds in 2007 I had a practice of regularly trying on every item in my closet. Then, the process was a happy one. I'd go through every single item and gleefully toss out everything that had gotten too loose - determined not to keep them around. I didn't want the option of sliding into a larger size. I wanted gaining weight to be uncomfortable and costly.
Faced with that super-tight pair of jeans, I figured it was time to revisit that old practice. For several hours yesterday I tried on every item of clothing I owned piece by piece. Turns out that those jeans weren't the only items that had gotten snug.
It was a sobering reality check, but it wasn't as bad as I feared. I had a couple of silk blouses that I could get away with, but weren't comfortable. All of my dresses and most of my pants (sans denim) fit. The areas where my wardrobe took a monster hit were in my suits and skirts. I have trouble fitting blazers anyway because I'm a bit busty, and so the weight gain made my buttons strain (though I could still fasten them). I also
pencil skirts, and those puppies are absolutely unforgiving. All told, I probably had to pull around thirty items from my closet. I only have four or five shorter skirts left!
I'm going to go back to trying on clothes once a month to see how things fit. That, for me, is actually much more motivating than the number on the scale, though I think numbers matter. And I've put a moratorium on any shopping. No new clothes until I can comfortably fit into the ones I already own.