Accountability, deception, and confusion
Monday, March 18, 2013
I am on week four of consolidation on the Cura Romana, so am trying out more starchy foods to see if they agree with me. To my surprise I found that Vogels bread, a whole grain health bread very popular here in NZ, doesn't seem to be a problem. Except possibly it induces some cravings. I need to check it out again a little more carefully in a few days.
The consolidation phase of the Cura is of course far more challenging than the controlled eating phase as there is exposure to foods and behaviours that haven't supported healthy and appropriate eating..
Luckily I don't have to get it right all the time, I can fix any slip ups quite easily. And I have another round of weight loss scheduled.
But I need to have the right attitude to my eating and I find myself even struggling to put into words the approach I should take. Perhaps this foggy thinking is a result of the carbs I have been introducing or maybe it is because this is such new territory for me that I am laying down new neural pathways.
I don't wholeheartedly accept the idea of total commitment to a paleo eating plan as yet, though I intend to experiment with it and see how it agrees with me. But the fact is, I don't really want to give up entirely on some of my standby foods. I suppose the best approach is to keep a careful eye on my reactions to what I put in my mouth, and keep an open and enquiring mind.
I can trust my fellow Sparkers with the fact that accountability is an issue for me. I am a strong willed chick and accustomed to getting what I want and going my own way. But here I am right at the point of needing to reconcile two apparently conflicting desires in order to get where I want to be.
At least I know that the thing to do is to stay at the uncomfortable place as long as I can, in order to find a way through.
And I guess another approach is just to ask my body, and listen very very carefully and respectfully to what it says. That would be a new thing!