Monday, March 18, 2013
How's everyone doing this Monday? It's oh so cold up here in Alberta. We've had a massive dump of snow that lasted for at least a few days and it makes me long even more for Spring. Set to begin this week, but something tells me it won't be Spring just yet.
Last week was really hard on me. I try to leave work at work and my boyfriend sits patiently every evening while I unwind and dish about my day. I really appreciate him for many reasons, but this is a huge one. I remember when I was young and would listen to my mom yap at my dad about all the things that brought her down during the day and he'd patiently just listen and nod. I would sit there thinking "jeez, this guy has the patience of a saint, I will never yap my man's ear off like she does" and like many other times I catch myself realizing I am just like my mother lol. It happens. I love my mom and I am proud to be following in her footsteps, but it's hilarious that I can clearly remember thinking that I would not be that way. Do we all grow up to turn into our parents?
Anyways, I digress... I yapped his ear off as I usually do and most times it seems the day that was bothering me has been lifted off my shoulders. Not last week though, I was so upset with the way things were going that I let it get the best of me. People who see me regularly, even strangers, have always given me the nickname "Smiley" because I am usually smiling. Even when I'm alone. It makes me feel good and they say it can make others who are feeling low smile too, so I try my best. I was horrified to realize I hadn't cracked a smile in 2 days. Almost ashamed. That's not like me. What is happening to me?
I decided to take Friday off work. I needed it and surely I feel I deserved it. I had a great weekend relaxing and looking into finding that perfect first home for us. We had a great time driving all over town looking into the possibilities. I still can't believe this is going to be a reality soon.
The bad parts... I skipped the pool on Thursday night. I should have gone because I know it would make me feel better but really, I just wanted to spend the night with my boyfriend and feel like myself. Swimming is off at my pool until Sundays so I planned on going Sunday and hitting it extra hard, but I slept right through my alarm that morning and missed it again. I wish I made it those days, but I am already over it. I forgive myself. I'm allowed to slip up here and there and I'm not making excuses for myself. Tonight I will hit the pool with full force and I will make this a great week.
Another bad part... I am .8 lbs up from what I was on Friday and that makes me sad, I attribute that to the swimming and also I got a bit lazy on my food tracking. That's not a habit forming though, I promised myself this week I will track every day again and I will do just that.
Here's some GREAT news you guys. I only recorded my physical measurements a week ago from Saturday. I have never tracked inches lost before when focusing on weight loss but I decided this time I would. I was planning on measuring myself monthly but this weekend when I saw the scales go up, I figured I may just have a look now and see if there's been a difference. Here it is you guys - I was so happy I felt tears welling up in my eyes. In just 1 week I have lost 6.5 INCHES! Now I don't know what is considered "normal" (and if you know, please feel free to share it with me) but I think for me 6.5 inches is nothing short of amazing. I feel incredible now, even though my scale went up in numbers. I did this. No one else did. I couldn't do this without all the support from my pals here. You girls are so awesome and I hope we are becoming life long friends because I think I owe any successes that come my way to you guys.
I feel great, even though I'm a little down that the numbers aren't budging in these last few days, and I am still shocked that I feel so strongly that I can do this. My numbers will continue to go down, and these inches will continue to fall off me...as long as I work my a$$ off and put in the effort. But guess what? I'm worth it. You are too. Let's do this!