Three weeks have zipped past. A lot has happened, both in the news and in the weather, and in terms of major stressful events in my life. But I can honestly say that I have never felt better, more alive, or happier, through it all!
There really is a solution!
Another week of doing exceptionally well on the eating plan, without a single struggle. I am gobsmacked. And grateful.
I went for the second time to a Monday morning meeting, and it was so deep and so almost cathartic on one level. I came away from the meeting feeling so empowered and so encouraged! When will I ever get over my "terminal uniqueness" and realize that even my deepest fear has already been felt by someone else...I am not alone. That is empowering.
My biggest challenge right now is feeling that I am just eating too much at each meal. One side of my brain knows I am not. I am measuring and tracking everything, and the numbers clearly are right on target. And yet, I have such a feeling of fullness like I've never before experienced. I used to eat triple the amounts I am now, and it was never enough. I always felt hungry. I always wanted more. I had no idea what it was like to eat "normal".
Now I do, and it's taking a bit of adjustment. Food just does not hold the interest it once had. I walked through Walgreen's, through the candy aisle, even picked up a couple of items and looked at them, but put them back, because I had absolutely no interest in them at all. None. This is brand new to me.
The biggest freedom is knowing I can have anything I want. Just not anytime I want nor any amount I want. Everything in normal portions and as part of a regular meal.
Now there are no more struggles, no more cravings, no more living with food being the center of my life. No more food obsessions. No more endless food frenzies or of being led by the food or the food commercials or the cravings.
Someone might say, "It sounds like you are finally in control." Well, I would have to laugh at that, because for the first time in my life, I am not in control, but neither is the food. I laid down the struggle and the burden "down by the riverside" as they say. I found a better way for me, and it is working, one day at a time. There truly is a solution!