Monday, March 18, 2013
I've talked a lot about being fat and how yucky it made me feel. But there is another side of being fat that is far more important and that is being unhealthy.
I believe it is possible to be outside your BMI weight (to "be fat") and still be healthy. You can be choosing the proper foods, drinking plenty of water, and exercising, but your body just holds on to the extra weight. There are also people who have medical conditions that make losing weight more challenging, but they are still fairly healthy.
I pretended that this is the kind of fat person I was. It wasn't my fault I was fat - it was genetics. It wasn't my fault I was fat - it was my surroundings. I was fat but I was still healthy, more or less. I mean, I mostly ate good foods - when I wasn't gobbling down candy bars and burgers. After all, I hadn't gone to a doctor to actually get an assessment, but I was still alive, right? That had to count for something.
But that wasn't true - I WAS unhealthy. I wasn't eating properly, avoided exercise, "forgot" to make yearly doctor's exams. I felt tired all the time, and yet I slept quite a bit (some weekends, I'd sleep until noon and STILL feel tired - I have NO IDEA why I didn't realize my problem sooner!). So not only was the scale telling me there was a problem, my body was desperately trying to get my attention to tell me there was something wrong.
I think one of the hardest parts of losing weight is just making that first step - realizing that something is wrong ("I don't have the energy I should") and deciding to do something about it. When I first talked to my health coach to get introduced to my program, I went in pretty sure I was going to kindly let her down. I could lose weight - I had before on Weight Watchers. I didn't really have a problem. But the more we talked, the more I began to see that I needed to change NOW - not tomorrow, not when the stars aligned perfectly, NOW. And that was when I signed up to the program and started.
Being fat isn't fun, but being unhealthy is far, far worse. Often times (like with me), the two go hand in hand. Sometimes they don't. That's why I think it's important to think about your health. Are you able to do the things you want? Do you eat fruits and veggies, lean meats, good healthy foods - or do you spend your days heading from one fast food restaurant to another?