Monday, March 18, 2013
So I'm sitting here, dragging my feet a little on getting started on the Shred for today. I've done it 10 times already so I'm a third of the way through.
I got to thinking Saturday, while the sweat was dripping off my face-- Natalie, who does the advanced moves, is not a skinny little toothpick of a girl. She is tall (or at least, taller than Jillian and Anita) and fit, but is still a big girl. So fit does not equal really thin.
I've hit a point in my journey where I think it's practically impossible for me to lose any more weight. I had wanted to get down to 140, but every time I manage to lose a couple pounds, they come right back. And 145 is in the middle of the "healthy" range of the BMI for me anyway.
Can you hear me trying to cut loose of my obsession with the number on the scale, as being *the* most important indicator of how I'm doing....
I'm thinking a better goal than focusing on my weight, would be focusing on fitness instead. I don't belong to a gym so I'm not sure about getting my body fat percentage tested. I'm not convinced I want anyone pinching my flab with calipers anyway. And you can forget about that test done in a water tank; too expensive. So I reckon I can go by measurements and how my clothes fit.
Another thing that struck me while Shredding the last time-- this is not an easy workout even for experienced exercisers. You can see Natalie pushing herself, trying to demonstrate the advanced moves; it is not easy for her either. I don't know why I had it in my head that it would all be easy, IF you were really fit. After all, even experienced marathoners don't find the race "easy".
sigh. I've laid around long enough-- I need to rise up already and get going.