Monday, March 18, 2013
The LORD showed me something the other day, and even though I've been a Christian for almost 34 years, I was awakened and enlightened. He showed me that having unforgiveness and unconfessed sin in my life gives satan legal ground to attack me. This was amazingly liberating!
The week before starting to Spark again, I was INCREDIBLY attacked by the enemy of our souls, and was extremely discouraged & defeated, and full of despair! I had NO HOPE! Of course, that is the way of the enemy to steal, kill and destroy! I had gained some weight, but the real issue wasn't the number on the scale! The real issue was my heart! I had bitterness setting up residence in the deepest part of my soul, and I had sins that I hadn't confessed to Jesus. Yes, I was redeemed, but I was also stagnated and stunted because of these important issues.
So the LORD gave me light! I was to ask Him to search me and try me and see if there was any wicked way in me--and He was SO FAITHFUL to shine His Holy Spirit on just the things I was hiding. Instead of hiding my sin, I RAN to my "Hiding Place" and received mercy and grace to help in my time of need. I asked for the blood of Jesus to cover me, the oil of His Spirt to fill me, and the armor of our POWERFUL GOD to protect me, and then I started warring by His POWER which works mightily in us, and He is wonderfully setting me on the right path once more.
I write this, and share this rich experience because for me this is the HEART of the journey! Even though I had lost a fair amount of weight [63#'s], I STILL hadn't gotten to the roots of my overeating and cravings. I'm happy to report that our God is a faithful Father who has been EXTREMELY patient with His daughter, and is now lovingly and tenderly leading me to higher ground.
May this encourage some who also need to go to the foundation of their problem, and may you know that there is ALWAYS hope with Jesus!!!!
Love to you all,