Monday, March 18, 2013
So, in the interest of preventing myself from becoming a full-fledged hermit, I've decided to get back on the SparkPeople wagon and try again, again. :-)
Lately, I've noticed myself not wanting to go anywhere outside the house. Hubby will run to the store for errands, really don't want to go to work, etc...this scares me a bit. It's not like it's uncomfortable for me to go anyway--I don't have a problem walking around or anything...I just don't want to be seen...*sigh* Plus, one of my students told me the other day that his little sister saw a picture of me and said that I was fat. Bless his little heart, he assured me that he told her that what she said was something very mean. He looked me in the eyes and said, "I know that's not true...you're beautiful and not fat, so don't worry about what she says." It made me laugh a bit, but then it made me sad. That's pretty much how I've been looked at my whole life--kids will say "Why are you so fat?" or "How many babies do you have in your belly and when are they coming out?" or my favorite--"you're so pretty! Imagine how beautiful you would be if you would lose weight!"
Anyway...enough belly-aching (pun intended)....wiping the tears from my eyes and pressing forward...just for today. Don't know yet if I have the strength for tomorrow yet, but for today, I do.