Sunday, March 17, 2013
goals just don't work for me. i have tried in the past to set goals. i sit down with pen and paper and make lists, bullet points, you name it and i have done it. it doesn't work. this vision board is just staring at me and quite honestly i'm tired of looking at it.
i know what i need to do, but i lack the desire to actually get the job done. some days i feel so great about getting into the action and running full speed ahead. other days i just don't want to do anything at all. i know this isn't good, but i can't, or should i say, DON'T want to change it.
starting good is always something i am good at. oh my, i am ready at the start marker and ready to go when gun sounds, i burst through a few obstacles and then i just slow down and sit back and undo all of my hard work. i sabotage myself. i hate it, but what can i do? this seems to be the dreadful story of my life.
for example, this weekend, i didn't do anything. it all started with having some folks over for dinner. then i got caught up with errands the week before. my son was sick, so i had to tend to him. i lost track of my goals, which weren't that great anyway. my days flew by me like a train on the tracks. and now i am just feeling fat. lol.
now here is the funny thing about all of this, i never feel guilty. i don't condemn myself. i don't feel like i have to do better. i don't feel like i have done something wrong or horribly unforgivable. i just feel like i need to do something different so i can stick to something more than a week or two.
on my sparkpage i am going to place some goals there. maybe i can actually stick with one or two of them longer than a week or two?
so, here's to being constant.