Sunday, March 17, 2013
The past few months have been a large transition in my house. It's been a good transition, but there have still been many challenges. I have become responsible for taking care of many things that I don't really know how to do. I learned how to put a plow blade on a Polaris Ranger and plow 1,000 of private road and driveway. I've learned how to paint walls, change furnace filters, fix sinks, change water filter units. I'm going to have to learn how to open and maintain our pool, then close it at the end of the season. I've never used the lawn mower but I'm going to have to learn how to use a broken and rigged mower (that someone else ruined).
I don't mind doing these things mostly. However, I'm exhausted. All of this extra work has made my back hurt even worse than before. Plowing or driving the Ranger to take the garbage to the dumpster (about 500 feet) just cause my pain levels to sky rocket. Today I had to completely clean a 3 car garage that hasn't been cleaned in months. The dogs have been tracking dirt in and I'm tired of cleaning the house just for them to track more in from the garage. It took more than 3 hours and a trip to the dumpster, which is now unfortunately full. Garbage day isn't until Thursday and we have diapers that get thrown out every day. Not sure how that's going to work right now.
I always feel productive when I manage to accomplish something like cleaning the garage. Except that I'm also feeling overwhelmed. I have 3 jobs and more responsibilities than I like to think about. Today instead of doing homework I cleaned the garage, and now I'm too tired to think through the math homework that I need to get done. What does everyone do? How do you balance all of your responsibilities with what needs to get done? I'm made attempts to prioritize and am dealing with the things that need to be done most urgently. I know that I'm not the only person with too many things to do. I'm just ready for a break.
My brother was supposed to come this week to help me, but he's decided he's not going to come. My friend and her husband (who's pretty handy) have agreed to help me with things since I baby-sit their kids for free. We're bartering since we don't have much money, but we can help each other with things that we're good at. I'm good with that, but they have a lot to do too, so they're not always reliable help.
I'm almost at the end of a steroid burst which usually makes me feel amazing, but this time I just feel exhausted and overwhelmed. But I still managed to get quite a bit done today. I hope that counts for something.