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self-sabotage

Sunday, March 17, 2013

On Feb. 26th, I finally made it to 150 lbs lost, and fell apart immediately afterwards. I got sick, and went to the hospital, and then got off plan. I gained almost 15 lbs in one week, and that made me depressed, so I stopped coming here as much. So I volunteered to stay busy, and of course there was snack food everywhere. I started back on my regular diet yesterday, after several re-starts, and am almost done with 2 full days of clean eating. Usually after 3 days, I am safe, and stop craving bad food. Several of my Sparkfriends reminded me that I was just delaying my return, and doing more damage, so here I am. I am posting a blog about gaining back almost 40 lbs. right behind one where I hit 150 lbs lost. The worst thing is, it has been about 3 weeks, and I am now 246.6, up 35.8 lbs. Yesterday I was 3 lbs heavier.

I have kept up with my exercise, although Wednesday I injured my side playing basketball, so just walking now. Maybe that is why I haven't been short of breath, or felt any negative side effects( exercise, not injury..lol ). I am sure a lot of it is water weight, and I just need to stay on track, but that is easier said than done.

So I just decided to put it in writing what has happened, and get a fresh start. Hopefully, I can get back to where I was by summer.
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JIBBIE49 3/25/2013 12:36AM

    Hope ur day is going well.

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HOUNDLOVER1 3/23/2013 3:36PM

    Russell, great to see you back, you know what to do and you'll do it well. These setbacks are all part of the learning curve. Staying connected helps, though, so if it happens again just blog about it every day as much as you can and you'll get back on track faster. emoticon

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ALISHAB3 3/20/2013 5:58PM

    I'm so sorry about the water weight gain. I have been putting on water weight too. I have no idea where its coming from, I'm drinking and eating low salt. So, go figure.

All we can do is our best. We can do it together. emoticon

btw, there is no place on Earth where you will find better weight loss buddies and more support than Spark, you can always lean on us. emoticon

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CALLMECARRIE 3/20/2013 7:46AM

    I'm glad you're back, Russell, I missed your blogs. Give yourself some time to lose the water weight and then you can regroup, it may not be as bad as it looks. I've been self-sabotaging almost daily (curse the person who keeps bringing jelly beans to work -- and I'm not even a big fan of jelly beans) so I haven't lost any weight for a month. Every day I ask myself why I do that. But then I do it again. All I can do is keep trying. The only way to fail for sure is to not keep trying.



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CLPURNELL 3/18/2013 10:19PM

    Glad to see yo back Russell!! We all fall down but it takes a lot of strength to get back up and come here and share that with us!! I admire you a lot!!

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-POOKIE- 3/18/2013 10:42AM

    Well I'm glad to see you back and I hope being back and active spurs you on to keeping yourself on your planned menu's.

i do the same things with big numbers, I did it in fact with chinese buffet and cream buns in China Town.

*hugs*

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FANGFACEKITTY 3/18/2013 2:15AM

    I am lad you are back. Set-backs happen, and many times we do them to ourselves because we have reached uncharted territory and fear what may happen next. There is comfort in the known, even if it is what we know we do not want or is not healthy for us. The good part is you know exactly what you have to do to get back on track and what works for you...and know that having done it once that you can get past your 215 "barrier".

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WOUBBIE 3/18/2013 12:30AM

    Russell, sometimes I think you make this shtuff up! LOL! (SP wouldn't let me post profanity...)

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JIBBIE49 3/18/2013 12:07AM

    Keep going.

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KICK-SS 3/17/2013 10:44PM

    Glad you're back Russell. Coming back is a big step - we all have set-backs and I have to agree with some that for some reason when we get down to a certain point, we will sabotage ourselves... I've done it myself. I guess we just have to live and learn, the good thing is you've came back..
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Glad you're back with us!!

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MOMMY2MADILYN 3/17/2013 9:32PM

    So nice to see you back!! emoticon

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SCUTTLEBUTT2014 3/17/2013 8:55PM

    Good for you that you decided to return and keep up your good work. Everyone slides back at some point but it is important that you are willing to try again and push forward. Welcome back and good luck.

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CAPECODLIGHT 3/17/2013 8:08PM

    So many of us regain after hitting key goals. Every time I get below 200, it's like I do a U-Turn and go right back above. I'm working on it.... Glad to see you are back here!

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ANNIE924 3/17/2013 6:55PM

    I don't know why we self sabotage, I just know I've been guilty of it myself. Lost 50 pounds here 2 years ago and promptly regained 20.

Sounds like you are back on track now, good for you. You know what to do, and your are doing it. Be kind to yourself and just keep going.

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