Sunday, March 17, 2013
Falling down hurts. Fallen Angel. Broken Angel. Too heavy for my wings to let me fly.
Remember this feeling. The spinning out of control. The falling. The need to control. The need to indulge. The pain it causes your heart. The pain it causes your mind.
The anxiety it creates.
I ate like garbage and knew it. I felt the need and said why not. I gave in. I gave in for over four days of eating garbage and putting crap in my body. I feel like crap. Broken out chin. Greasy face. Dull hair. Dull eyes.
When I walk I feel heavy. Not light and fit and happy. The anxiety and depression are edging in because of all the fake products, sugar and bread in my body. I feel it. I feel it and I hate it.
It is like I broke my own wings.
Remember this feeling. Remember this upset. Remember this pain. Remember to never go back.
I bought all healthy groceries for this week. Just baked chicken. I will cut up some veggies. I have it all planned out to ensure that I wont be making the same mistake again.
Pre plan and clean it up.
DETERMINED by mistakes.