Maintaining isn't enough
Sunday, March 17, 2013
I continue to feel lost this last week. I've been very lax about logging in my food again this week. I tried to stay consistent only about 1/2 the time. I have been exercising, and was SOOO happy to see that I earned that 250 fitness minute award last week for the month of March. That is a success, and I am celebrating it! But, I continue to be spiraling downward with my food intake. I think part of my problem is that I haven't been doing planned grocery shopping for the last month or so. Planned shopping has always helped me stay in check because I know I can plan to make healthy meals, and have those available to me instead of quick-fix meals that ALWAYS tend to be not my best choice. So, yesterday I armed myself with a meal plan, and went shopping. This morning I woke up and had a sensible breakfast, which has made me feel good about today's start. Through all of this, I have been able to maintain my weight, but honestly, for where I am at, that just isn't enough for me. I want to lose another 16lbs this year, which I don't think is unrealistic at all. However, it is March already, and my weight has barely moved since Christmas time. It is really time I get back in focus, and I'm just finding a really hard time with that. I'm not trying to be stupid or lazy about this, but I am not making the connection right now about why this is so hard for me again after all of this time of successfully and gradually losing weight. I want to feel on top of the world again, but I just can't seem to find that focus right now. But, I know I am here today, blogging again because I am hanging on to that rope, trying so hard not to just give in. I'm not prepared to throw in the towel, but yes, I do fear that, that is exactly what I am doing slowly with not staying focused. Anyways, just trying to get my thoughts down today to stay accountable. Searching for strength and trying to take this one day at a time.