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Today - Take care of me and Stay Grounded

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Hubby's at work today. I'm home alone with the dogs. It's all okay. I wish Hubby wasn't working, but he has to do what he has to do.

Today I'm going to take care of me. I didn't sleep well last night. Not sure why. Just didn't. I've been pushing hubby away again. I don't want to do that, but I just don't have it in me right now. I need to find a balance, or this could grow into a major problem. Hubby's "drive" is so high, and I've just got absolutely no interest lately. I know it's because of everything I've been going through. He doesn't make me feel bad about it, but I do. I worry. I worry that this could drive us apart. I have talked to Hubby about it. He tells me there's nothing to worry about, but... I've been on the other side of this in the past. It hurts. He's so good to me. The last thing I want to do is hurt him.

Anyhow, I need to stop worrying and take care of me today.

I have all those clothes to go through.

We also picked up some pecans yesterday. I have everything I need to do some baking. Hubby sure likes the gluten free, sugar free brownies. I'm debating making some today for him.

I am thinking I might do a couple of loads of laundry today too. It'd be nice to get all my laundry from the trip taken care of before it becomes overwhelming. I actually still have one suitcase to unpack still.

If I have some time, maybe I should make some plans for this week too. What am I going to eat. What am I going to do for activity. I want to go to the gym and incorporate strength training in my routine, but I HATE crowds. The small gym around here is always so crowded. I will need to find a way to deal with crowds in order to make this work. I can't go before work - it doesn't open until after I leave for work. If I come home for supper first, I won't go. Right after work is the best time motivationally wise.

I need to find a way to do this. I need access to the aerobics studio for dance practice.

This is getting me too frustrated right now. I'm going to put this away for a while.

Time for breakfast. I could make up a batch of Quinoa - cook enough to re-heat some every day this week. Take it to work, and microwave it. Add dried berries, and a little soy or almond milk. Hmm. I could do smoothies on my way out the door to work, bring some Quinoa for my morning snack. Salad for lunch... Healthy. Full of nutrition. Easy to do.

Look at that. I think I have a nutrition plan for the week. Now to find salad recipes, etc. I should also make some home made ice cream - that's what I put into the smoothies instead of ice.

Time for me to get off the blog and get stuff done today. I hope you all have a productive day as well. If you are under this storm front that is here, be safe today.
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    Awww, you have so many worries, my heart goes out to you! You can take encouragement from the fact that you have a supportive, understanding hubby. Try to find other ways you can show him your love. When you ask him about his day, don't just say "how was your day?" Ask leading specific questions that will get you both talking and show that you are truly interested in him and what he has to say. Praise him for the things he does both at work and at home. Just cultivate your love and be thankful for him and maybe you will start to feel more affectionate.

    I too struggle with what to eat. My DH eats a very unhealthy diet, while I adore nutritious foods. I decided to precook big batches of beans and lentils and such for my meals throughout the week so I can still cook him the foods he enjoys and not have to "cook" 2 separate meals for us each night.

    If you continue to have no interest in intimacy, you may wish to bring this up with your doctor. Sometimes it is caused by a hormone imbalance. Intimacy is a very important aspect of married life not to mention the many health benefits of improved mood and caloric burn!

    I wish you all the best!
    1651 days ago
    Haha! I probably shouldn't laugh. (It's a sardonic laugh) I totally followed your train of thought through that post. It's like when no one is around (husband, kids) I get stuck in my own head! But, you're right. Getting up and doing something does tend to pull me out too. It's just so hard. It's so easy to say "take care of yourself"...but that's what's hard. I'd rather take care of 20 me-s. Now I'm off to make a smoothie for my son. Good idea. emoticon
    1651 days ago
  • JUSTME29
    I think once you get your closet cleaned out and your laundry done you will feel better. I'm not saying it's a fix all and miraculously all your wounds will be healed, more like it's a soothing balm that won't heal on it's own but will help you feel better while you heal underneath.

    I always find that when my house is a mess (like now) I have a very negative outlook on life and am just not a happy or nice person. Once I get my house clean, all of the same problems are still there but they seem more manageable. Right now I'm in a pretty low point and I couldn't figure it out. Then I looked around, saw the state of my kitchen and the rest of my house, and now I know what I need to do to feel better.
    1651 days ago
    Stay positive...
    1651 days ago
    take care of you, do whatever you need to do for yourself. emoticon
    1651 days ago
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