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Working through my March funk...

Sunday, March 17, 2013

I've been in a funk so far this March for a couple of reasons...

One - as much as I like my job, there are alot of reasons why I would happily leave at the moment. Since last October I've been in a new department with a new manager. It's a woman...I hate to say it but I really don't like reporting to a woman. Don't get me wrong, I believe and support women in management and I think more boards need us but we are not always the easiest to report to. In general I like and respect my boss but I've discovered that she is controlling and a micro manager. It's been challenging especially with my experience and education level to be treated as someone needs every move monitored. Also, the company as a whole is struggling and we did not receive merit increases this year. With the increase in taxes at the first of the year I am actually bringing home less money. If the right position with the right company at the right salary presented itself, I would happily jump ship at the moment. What I'm finding though is my compensation is usually at the top end of the scale...some days it feels as if I have worked so hard to be the best at my job, worked hard to get an advanced degree and yet, I can't seem to get anywhere. This economy sucks!

Two - my youngest son has epilepsy and has had two seizures in less than three months. He's 17 so this causes some anger and disappointment from him regarding not being able to drive. If he can go seizure-free it'll be September 7 before he can drive. It's frustrating not knowing exactly why he has this condition but we think we have targeted his trigger...fatigue. The problem is as a 17 year old boy, a growth spurt can cause fatigue. The last two episodes though involved him taking out of the ordinary naps within 12 hours of the seizure so we are definitely on high alert for that trigger. We are also being more aggressive in his overall health. He is about 20 pounds overweight so we are really working on helping him to drop the weight. He seems to be on board (he's fought us in the past) and has lost 6 pounds already! I keep a pretty clean cupboard but his dad is now getting with the program. No soda, no processed foods and more organic meats. There is so much junk in our food and we hope by eliminating these nasty chemicals that will help him. I'm also going to have his sugar checked and we are getting a referral for a nutrionist from his neurologist. He's feeling better already and I pray the ladder of healthy living will help us keep his condition under control. Healthy eating+exercise=increased energy=better rest=fatigue management=less seizures. Of course his medicine as been adjusted as well. We're keeping our fingers crossed.

I can't begin to tell anyone who hasn't witnessed a seizure how frightening it is. There is an unmistakable noise he makes which is what my nightmares are made of. Seeing him go through them is just awful and we are fortunate he has always had them at home. The last one was in the dining room and he fell on the dog food bowls but I'm grateful he didn't fall into the water. I have to learn to manage my panic of when and where they could happen and what if I can't be there to somehow protect him. I'm working through it and trying to not let it totally control my thoughts but I feel like I can't let my guard down for a minute.

Hence, my March funk...


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
DDOORN 3/18/2013 9:32PM

    WAY too much on your plate these days...! Whew! Praying for quieter times soon!


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BILL60 3/18/2013 10:08AM

    You certainly have some serious challenges facing you. Hopefully, your son will turn it all around. The best to you and your family.

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BILLALEX70 3/18/2013 9:20AM

    Sending you positive vibes and hugs!

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GOODGETNBETR 3/17/2013 4:06PM

    Only 20 pounds, welcome to my world emoticon Hey, he and I can do it together, if he needs the motivation. But if he's like most folks money talks and is an even better motivator (studys prove it). That's why I signed up for's 10% challenge. Basicially you pledge $150 bucks and you have 6 months to lose 10% of your body weight. If you do they double your money and you get $300. Definitely read the rules as there are key points that must be followed or you forfeit your "wager." Hope things improve on the work front and with the funk. For me a shower usually helps. emoticon and happy St Patrick's Day!

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SANDLADY48 3/17/2013 12:52PM

    As a mom, I understand your fear for your son and I have seen a seizure, it is very frightening. I hope he makes it to September, but then, that will give you yet another worry. I hope you find a way to deal with all this stress before it affects your health and fitness. We must each find our own path there, two steps forward, and one back. Good luck!

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HAPPYMENOW58 3/17/2013 9:50AM

    You are under so much stress! Don't beat yourself up.Set smaller goals....Also, practice some deep breathing, meditation, or try yoga......Hard exercise also helps me when stress really takes over....Hang in there....Pray....Seek support from family members or church.....Don't be afraid of reaching out for help.....You can do this..You guys will get through this...!

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