Sunday, March 17, 2013
For someone who is just about to celebrate 4 years of maintaining an 80 pound weight loss, perhaps today is just another day. (Forgive me. I estimated for the At Goal & Maintaining Team the wrong date -- about 2 weeks early. I looked it up. I made my Weight Watcher goal weight on March 21, 2009. So I had a little premature celebrating.)
Then again, perhaps today is not just another day. Today I am celebrating an 86 pound weight loss. I am celebrating that for the first time in over a year I do not want to lose weight. And I do not want to gain weight. I truly want to maintain this weight of 126.0. I may still get stronger. I may still run faster. I may be able to improve my body composition, reducing body fat and increasing muscle. But I'll be happy if the scale stays right where it is!!
Now what? Well, reality is that my weight won't stay right where it is. It will fluctuate. And I've learned for the most part it will fluctuate up, not down. So I won't change what I'm eating until I am to the point that 126 is my "default" weight. Right now, if I relax a bit, I'll weigh 128 or 128.x. So I call 128 my default weight. I'm not trying to get under my goal weight in order to splurge. I find I can eat socially and most of the time keep my nutrition, with the possible exception of sodium when I'm not in control of the food, in line. I am working to extinguish what is left of an old binge eating compulsion. At the moment, I feel like it is conquered, but I know that feeling can be an illusion so I am on guard.
So for now really nothing changes. Except. Except. A big except. I look at the scale and I can't help but smile.