I've already admitted I'm an addict: wheat, gluten, potatoes, dairy, sugar, caffeine - all these foods are dangerous for me because once I start I can't stop, and indulging in 'a little' leads to wanting more again and again - another fix!

I took 18 months to wean myself off all these things - I lost 20lbs and felt great - so many health benefits (aches and pains gone, arthritis, headaches, body odour, piles, etc etc). But, guess what? because we live in a world where these things are presented to us all the time - along with emotional ribbons and bows - they've crept back in!

So, I've joined the Tame Your Sweet Tooth Challenge - and one of the actions is to blog at least 3 times a week about my relationship with sugar et al.

Today I have (had to?) bought food to offer guests at tea time today. These are ALL trigger foods for me:
4 cheese scones
1 packet of choc chip cookies
1 pack butter

I know that I am likely to (a) eat some of these with my guests and (b) finish off the rest when they're gone.

I am contemplating the idea of throwing the left-overs away ................ this is a very, very painful idea - and I also know that I am capable of going into the bin later to get them out again! Help! This is a real addictive thing - the thoughts that make it possible to get that fix are amazingly ingenious! I really don't even want to share them with other people - even at the same time as I don't want to eat them at all, I want to eat ALL of them!

I will edit this post later and record what actually happened.

Later: My guests have gone, two scones went with them and I consumed one with my friend who stayed for tea (after our house-meeting). The biscuits are unopened - and I am going to take them to work tomorrow to share at the staff meeting (and not eat any of them!). One friend brought me two oranges - no problem. Another brought me a box of 8 cereal bars - 100kcals each sweetened with Maltitol......... I had one with my tea (with my friend). The ingredient list includes barley malt, glycerol, maltodextrin ............ sounds like sugar to me!

So - here's the plan

biscuits - to work for other people to eat
cereal bars - chucked 'em in the bin - I don't want to inflict them on anyone else after reading about Maltitol!
butter - keep to use moderately (I don't eat it on it's own or in large quantities)

I enjoyed the cheese scone with butter, and the cereal bar I ate with my friend.
The challenge now is to stay on the level.

I am going to do my strength training - then make myself a raw courgette (zucchini) meal with a vegan pesto, followed by an orange and a kiwi fruit.

Then I am going to have a footbath and pamper my feet before I go to bed.

I re-read an article I had saved in my 'favourites' from the wellbeing section - on starting my sentences with "I". "I am choosing not to eat the cookies, because I know that eating them would make me feel bad."

Even later: I DID do the strength training. I didn't do the raw meal. I opened the fridge and saw some lovely Spring Greens I'd got in my veg box on Friday - so I steamed a heap of them and ate them with three rashers of Cheatin' Bacon (vegan) and some pepper sauce - delish! Then I ate the fruit for dessert. (also tracked it all) Feel quite victorious!