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a reward for me...


Sunday, March 17, 2013

Well, I have been struggling with night eating all week- not sure why. There is stress with my mom still being pretty depressed but notw in rehab facing a long recovery. I go see her every day at dinner time to try and encourage her to eat. She hasn't been eating for various reasons- probably mainly emotional now- but will not get stronger if she doesn't.

Part of the struggle I think is the initial diet euphoria when I can resist temptation is over- now its more slogging through. In general I am eating so much healthier it can only be good in the long run. Last week's weight gain of 1.2 pounds really bummed me out especially when I felt like I was working extra hard with exercise. At WWs when you gain I noticed they kind of whisper it to you in a sad way.

Anyway this blog is about reward- For the last 11 years I have had acrylic nails which I love- I know all the negatives about having them but they make me so happy whenever I look at my hands that I don't care. I love color and designs and since my friend does them for me- its not that expensive. Over the years I have switched to buying my own polish so I can have ready whatever I want. I come up with different designs and ideas. This week I found a new magazine about nail art at grocery store- I wasn't going to buy it but did. I have had such fun looking at the nails and reading about new trends. Which of course prompted me to buy some new nail polish. I went on a mini splurge- first ordering some new colors from Amazon- who would think they had polish? Then a new color at Walmart cause I was afraid new colors wouldn't come in time for next appt. ( I go about once a month since I have been unemployed)
Then after looking at magazine more I found some new unusual polish I could find at Sephora.
(Sephora is my other true love!) I had gotten an email with a deal for extra samples- so went on- ordered new nail polish and found a $5 deal on their lip gloss and ordered my samples.

So now despite other stressors I am happy about my new nail polish coming- I have enough to go for many manicures- maybe through summer and it has distracted me from eating.

Now I am going to ride the exercise bike for 10 minutes- take a shower and go back to bed because it is 3am!
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SHARIKAYE 3/23/2013 2:18AM

    So proud of you for rewarding yourself with something you love. And it wasn't food!! What an accomplishment!
Marianne, I know we are going to do this!! We have to! One pound at a time, one day at a time and sometimes one meal at a time. Keep logging your food. ALL of it.
I can't imagine how hard it is to be responsible for your parents. Mine are 72 and 78, but are relatively healthy. My mom has heart probs but she sees her doctors regularly and gets her pacemaker checked. Occasionally she is hospitalized for atrial fib, and in the beginning had to have a by-pass, but at the most I have had to visit her in the hospital or stop by after her surgery to see if she needed anything. It must be very taxing for you to be there for them day in and day out. Don't forget to tke some time for yourself.
I hope your mom is getting some professional help for her depression. It sounds like it is to the point that she needs it. Even in the rehab center they should be able to have someone come in to see her. You just can't battle it on your own. And a good anti-depressant works miracles.
Hang in there my friend. Every day we are that much closer to victory!

Shar

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MELLIESUE13 3/21/2013 8:53PM

    You are doing great Marianne! I took care of my mother for over 2 years... it can be so heartbreaking ...and it makes you feel so helpless. Please don't forget to be kind to you too emoticon

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ALASKABRED 3/21/2013 12:44PM

    I know how you feel when it comes to having stressors regarding the care of a loved one. Your Mom will not want you down and not caring for yourself. It sounds as if you found a fun diversion and I bet your nails look great. I wish you lived next door because mine are not.... emoticon

The nighttime snacking can be a pain. I do that too. It does help me to track my foods because somewhere in the recess of my mind is the calorie or nutrition count that I have ingested so far and when I snack I tend to either take less or not at all. Of course there are times I say "what the hell" and take a cookie. Just be good to yourself and be happy. Sometimes it takes a bit of work. Good luck.



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DEBIGENE 3/18/2013 8:27PM

    In another lifetime I was a manicurist and also a hairdresser (that's what we were called back in the day) and then later in life I was a receptionist in a salon. I loved the industry, it was just so much fun.

I applaud you for rewarding yourself with whatever makes you happy as long as it is not binging on food. You did great enjoy your new treats, you deserve them !!!

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MCYNDYM 3/18/2013 11:05AM

    Marianne, you are amazing. Chica, I understand about the little addiction to the nail salon and getting your nails to look wonderful. There is a magazine the nail salons use called, 'Nail Pro'. I loved reading Nail Pro and seeing the different things nail stylist can do with acrylic!

I definitely will keep you and your mom in my prayers. It's never easy to care for yourself and help family members too.

If you need to talk, I'm always here for you!!

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JOANIE69 3/17/2013 1:51PM

    We have to treat OURselves now and then too. emoticon
I have said a prayer for your mom and you...such a stressful time for you. emoticon
Sharikaye (can find her among my friends if interested) also battles with depression, is a sweetheart, and maybe can offer you some advice...who knows.
emoticon Hang in there... emoticon

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TATTER3 3/17/2013 10:13AM

    emoticon Keep Sparkin'!!

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KKKAREN 3/17/2013 6:21AM

    It's hard to eat with wet nails!!!

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MARIANNE9855 3/17/2013 4:10AM

    I did 30 minutes and now I am really happy but probably won't be when I try to get up tomorrow... emoticon

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