How much more?
Saturday, March 16, 2013
Am I going to be dealing with this year?! My day didn't go as planned. Started with a migraine last night out of the blue, which stunk! Then this morning there was another 1-2 inches of snow on the ground, so Hubs and I didn't get out for breakfast together. I was aching and he needed to head out extra early for his load. Then my sister called...
Remember back around Thanksgiving when my mom's health issues started? Then again in January? Yeah, guess what? They did a heart catheterization yesterday. It was a waste of time, her heart is in too bad of shape. They talked about stents, but she needs so many, she probably wouldn't survive the placement. So-open heart bypass surgery it is. My sister said mom's body has been trying to compensate for the closed, partially blocked, and just hardening arteries so that it looked like a mass of tree roots when they showed her the pictures. Apparently, this circulatory problem is what has been causing all of her problems. And her doctor (whom she adores and I despise) told me he had "tested her for everything that could possibly be causing the problems"?! Hmmm. Evidently NOT!
So, now we have to wait and see what happens with her surgery. Hubs isn't here to help me drive down there, and I wouldn't make it in that pickup unless I absolutely have to. It's just too hard to get into it.
Yet again, I'm asking my dear Sparkfriends to pray for me and my family. I know I will get through whatever His will. The waiting is going to be hard, though.
I ended up not even working today and just sat and read all day. I polished off FOUR novels!! And half a batch of buttermilk biscuits. So much for getting back on track...
I wish I could explain how this all feels, but I can't. I don't want to lose my mom, and I'm not ready to have to go to the funeral home where my dad was or the cemetary where he is buried. I wasn't ready to go to the nursing home he died in, either, but Mom needed me there. I know I will do whatever needs to be done. I just hope some of it won't need doing right now. I'd rather not have the first time I have to face my dad's grave be to bury my mom with him.
And when I called her today, she tried stirring up trouble between me and my sister again. I didn't let her. And I let her know that we all know who caused all the problems by lying in the first place all those years ago. I also told her that I love her, but that she's not going to get away with that crap again. Ever.
Now I get to deal with the stress, while I'm trying to wean off migraine meds, AND try to get back on board taking weight off.
Prayer, definitely. Lots of prayer.
Have a good Sunday tomorrow. And happy St. Paddy's day!