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Saturday, March 16, 2013

Am I going to be dealing with this year?! My day didn't go as planned. Started with a migraine last night out of the blue, which stunk! Then this morning there was another 1-2 inches of snow on the ground, so Hubs and I didn't get out for breakfast together. I was aching and he needed to head out extra early for his load. Then my sister called...

Remember back around Thanksgiving when my mom's health issues started? Then again in January? Yeah, guess what? They did a heart catheterization yesterday. It was a waste of time, her heart is in too bad of shape. They talked about stents, but she needs so many, she probably wouldn't survive the placement. So-open heart bypass surgery it is. My sister said mom's body has been trying to compensate for the closed, partially blocked, and just hardening arteries so that it looked like a mass of tree roots when they showed her the pictures. Apparently, this circulatory problem is what has been causing all of her problems. And her doctor (whom she adores and I despise) told me he had "tested her for everything that could possibly be causing the problems"?! Hmmm. Evidently NOT!

So, now we have to wait and see what happens with her surgery. Hubs isn't here to help me drive down there, and I wouldn't make it in that pickup unless I absolutely have to. It's just too hard to get into it.

Yet again, I'm asking my dear Sparkfriends to pray for me and my family. I know I will get through whatever His will. The waiting is going to be hard, though.

I ended up not even working today and just sat and read all day. I polished off FOUR novels!! And half a batch of buttermilk biscuits. So much for getting back on track...

I wish I could explain how this all feels, but I can't. I don't want to lose my mom, and I'm not ready to have to go to the funeral home where my dad was or the cemetary where he is buried. I wasn't ready to go to the nursing home he died in, either, but Mom needed me there. I know I will do whatever needs to be done. I just hope some of it won't need doing right now. I'd rather not have the first time I have to face my dad's grave be to bury my mom with him.

And when I called her today, she tried stirring up trouble between me and my sister again. I didn't let her. And I let her know that we all know who caused all the problems by lying in the first place all those years ago. I also told her that I love her, but that she's not going to get away with that crap again. Ever.

Now I get to deal with the stress, while I'm trying to wean off migraine meds, AND try to get back on board taking weight off.

Prayer, definitely. Lots of prayer.

Have a good Sunday tomorrow. And happy St. Paddy's day!
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  • LINDAK25
    I'll pray for your mom, too.
    1831 days ago
    Awww, noooo. I'm sorry about your mom.

    Good for you for not letting her stir up stuff between you and your sister.

    I know it's awful, but... you may have to rely on your sister again to be the one to be there. Just take a deep breath. You have done a lot for your mom, and you care very much, but do keep in mind the reality of your body and your transportation. Don't push yourself to do something that will only end up hurting you. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

    You are so strong. You amaze me. I wish you didn't have to BE so strong. emoticon You deserve a break.

    And yeah, I think we might be related - biscuits are my weakness too! So tasty. emoticon
    1832 days ago
  • JUDITH316
    I want you to know my prayers are with you and your family, I'm so sorry you are going through such a hard time of it, my prayers are also for your Mom's surgery that it will be successful and your Mom will be raised up and totally healed. Please keep me posted on your Mom's progress and how surgery goes, I am believing for a miracle and invite you to join your prayers with mine believing that our God will raise your Mom up for His Glory... emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1833 days ago
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