Saturday, March 16, 2013
So... hi. Again.
I don't know how many "I'm back" blogs this makes now. I've been on and off of this site with two different profiles since 2008. So clearly the weight loss hasn't stuck. But here's to new beginnings, right? :)
Here's the story:
I'm fat. Surprised? Of course not. And I've mostly always been fat. And at 38 years old, I'm kind of ok with that. Mostly. I mean, sure, I'd like to be thin, but I don't feel like that's ever going to happen. Maybe someday I'll be smaller, but I'll probably never be a supermodel. But if I could drop a few pants sizes and have my stomach NOT stick out farther than my boobs, I'd be happy. I'm not a yo-yo dieter. I've lost a bunch of weight once, and half a bunch of weight once. Both times it was a very slow process, and both times I eventually gained all the weight back, although not all the size. I'm at a point now where I really love myself - seriously, I'm awesome - but I feel like I'm maybe getting old. I feel like my health is slowly starting to fail, like I get sick more easily and it takes longer to recover from big drinking weekends and my stomach is more sensitive and I have more random pains. I just don't feel as invincible as I did 2 years ago, and that makes me sad. So here I am, trying to keep the olds away for as long as possible. And hey, if I lose weight in the process, then yay me!
I'm currently enrolled in a year-long program focusing on weight loss through habit building. So far so good, but the social support leaves a lot to be desired. So I'm back primarily for social support. I want people I can bitch to about weight loss AND talk to about Star Wars! I always had a good time on this site, I hope I can find that again.
Now, that being said, you should know that I am taking a very "slow and steady wins the race" and "moderation is kay" approach. I don't expect to drop 50 pounds in two months. I also don't plan to give up ice cream or pizza. I don't want to be judged for that. One of my least favorite things about diet sites is people chastising other people for having some french fries, or whatever. If deprivation is your thing, cool. Just be aware it's not mine. I'm going to eat candy. If that means I lose 0.75 pounds this week instead a whole pound, whatever. Losing is losing, even if it's slow. I have no interest in giving up the things that I love.
So, to happy times!