Good things sometimes are not obvious...

Saturday, March 16, 2013

Over the past few days, I've been upset about my knee, not having time in the am to workout. I am very busy with school, teaching online courses and my new job. AND, I have to keep my family happy (and myself while doing that!). I came to the realization that it's ok not to worry about not working out EVERY day. The body needs rest. I am enjoying my rest, enjoying talking more with my family and relaxing when I can with my pets. This is good pondering time. I am also being great with my calories and coming to really get back in touch with my old self; eating great, limiting the overeating (actually none this week), and enjoying it.

I also was pondering (during one of my ADD episodes), how my mind wanders. I will attempt to convey my realizations here but forgive me if it's too blurry.

I have a problem with attention; I think we all do. We have too many stimuli to keep a focused mind during TV, conversations, meetings, etc. So today while at my class from 8-12, I was learning about very technical database geeky computer stuff and was beginning to get bored. I realized that and forced myself to pay attention. THe few times that I 'caught' myself getting off track and wandering in my mind, I noticed that my thoughts were RELATED to statements, words or things that were being displayed on the screen.

An example; my professor had the word 'definition' written on the board. I caught a glance during a bored moment and before I knew it, my mind was trying to connect that word with something familiar in the past. Sort of like a memory search. Soon, I was thinking about being young and getting my first dictionary (that is where you find definitions). My brain was looking for something familiar to connect with. Pretty soon I was thinking about my Dad who was the one who gave me that dictionary and soon, I was thinking about his passing in 2011 which I am still (and probably will never be) am not over emotionally. I realized that my memory led me down a path of past experiences with related artifacts of the word/statement/visual at hand. There were also times that I got so far off the beaten path (thinking about a poodle) and have NO idea how this happened. But there were a few times that I was able to catch myself before getting too far and make the connection of familiarity from the past.

Maybe it's me, but I think this is one of the most incredible discoveries I've made in the past many years. Science tries to put psychology in books and teach about brain function, but to actually experience first hand, how the memory operates is amazing to me.

I will use this to:

1. Focus on positive things that relate to positive past experiences.
2. Exercise can bring me back to a happier time in my life when everything was easy and mobility was not constrained.
3. I can use this to meditate on current visions and goals and relate those to past behaviors that have led me to similar success.

Call me nuts. But that's OK, because I loved peanut butter as a kid and love nuts (actual memory from writing that)....


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    Enjoy your rest time and the time that gives you to reflect on everything else! I think you are making great progress on figuring out YOU and that is the biggest part of the journey!
    1801 days ago
    realising that you don't have to train every day is a great thing! You do get to live in between trainings. That is called having a life and being human. Using the time otherwise is also a good thing. Trying to be a machine is not realistic. we are humans and life happens to humans.

    As for the mind, I always thought it was a beautifull thing. And if you manage to use it well it can create wonderfull extraordinary things!
    1802 days ago
    You are not nuts!!

    I was at work this week, making over 200 turkey and cheese sandwiches and my mind wondered back in time to when my favorite cousin Rick was alive. He died of a rare sort of cancer at 51 years old. He was amazing!! I was smiling while making the sandwiches and the ladies in the kitchen were staring at me. BTY, I work in a school cafeteria. I just looked over at them and kept smiling.

    Going back I think can be a happy experience!! emoticon
    1803 days ago
    I was talking to a friend of mine the other day about the same thing. I told him that I happened to look up from my computer screen and noticed a cobweb on the wall. The cobweb made me think of spiders and how I got bitten by one as a child. During that time my older brother calmed me and took care of me because our dad just passed away. Then my mind fast-forwarded to how my brother was always there for me through the years until he passed away a few years ago the day before my birthday. The mind is a journey. Intertwined with memory after memory. We wouldn't be normal if we didn't have such memories. Some are good ones, some are painful, but it makes us who we are.

    I think you are a pretty swell guy. You're definitely not nuts. Just deeply human. Thank you for being you.
    1803 days ago
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    I think it's interesting how in your so called ADD state your mind would drift into a free association state. Where did it go...definition- dictionary- dad....."very interesting" ( in my best Sigmund Freud accent). Maybe that's something that is unresolved...u think?

    I am all for blocking negative thoughts. Onward and upward to positivity....but when you are silent ...away from all the stimuli...pay attention where you mind meanders. Is it dwelling in the past...looking toward the future...what's wrong with NOW? Cause like it or not that is all you got.... emoticon (that's me getting my doctorate in psychology yesterday) emoticon
    1803 days ago

    Comment edited on: 3/16/2013 5:43:29 PM
    You are so right about there being too much stimuli in our lives. It has become so busy that they invented the term "multi-tasking" to explain how we handle multiple items at once. The problem with muli-tasking is that when we do it, we don't do any thing particularly well! We end up half assing multiple tasks, instead of doing a superb job on one task at a time. Unfortunately, life doesn't usually allow us to focus on one task at a time anymore, we are distracting ourselves to death!
    1803 days ago
    Let me know if you discover that secret. I find it harder and harder to keep my concentration. You're right. There is too much to distract us. LOOK.. a bright shiny thing! LOL I need to use that inner voice for keeping my mind on track. My mother has altzheimers and I pray that a cure comes soon before my daughters have to worry about me.
    Sorry about your Dad. Time heals. I think my Dad is up there watching me.
    1803 days ago
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