Saturday, March 16, 2013
When I restarted this journey on July 24, 2011 I never dreamed of where it would take me. I already knew that SP would help hold me accountable for the food I ate.
I never realized how much I needed all of you. Your continued support has helped in so many ways. My first go around on SP I kept to myself, didn't do the friend thing and was private. Yes I lost weight but I felt so alone. This time I thought what have I got to lose - no one knows me here. I was anonymous for a while. After a while I got braver and posted a picture or two. One of these days I'll get around to posting more - I need to get some newer photos anyway. Your support and encouragement gets me through the times I'm not doing so great. Like with this weight ping ponging. I know I can do it, it's just so darn hard right now - I think it's the winter blahs taking over. I am more determined to get moving towards the goals I set back in 2011 now. My mindset has slowly shifted because you've kept me in your thoughts. For that I thank you.
Another amazing thing has happened. My walking! I track my walking everyday. Just on what I have actually tracked as far as mileage goes I am at 894 miles since July 11, 2011. Almost 900 miles. The journey has been fun because I am doing my virtual walk of the Appalachian Trail and I'm about 105 miles from the West Virginia/Virginia state lines after starting down in Georgia. When I saw that I was amazed. No wonder my feet are tired! I'm sure if I had tracked my other walking times as mileage I'd probably be there already but I didn't have access to accurate tracking. I use my smartphone now with my MapMyRun app - I have it set to walking. As long as I can get a GPS signal I know how far I'm going. It's fun to walk then go back and look at the crazy routes my dog takes me on. I never in a million years dreamed I could walk that far. Along the walking routine I've also jogged some with my dog (who's on a leash). I hadn't done any of that since high school (graduated June 1972) so that was amazing. My body isn't able to do alot of things (physically) that it once did but I'm truly amazed at what I can do.
I know there are people out there who are in their 90s running marathons. I know I'll most likely never be one of them. I applaud you running or doing whatever you do because you're doing it and most of all enjoying it. I've read of 90 year olds still teaching yoga. Amazing! The important thing to remember is any effort and all efforts you make will lead to amazing results. We can do amazing things once we get our minds set on doing them.
This journey is as much about what your mind is thinking as your body doing them. You have to want to do this. You have to believe in yourself something I truly have problems with - I've had them all my life. I have always felt inferior to other people. Like I wasn't good enough. I wasn't worth the effort of trying to do better. That lack of self-worth has seriously affected my life. My lifestyle sucked - I was shut in, stayed at home only did what was required and sometimes not even that. I was alone - even through two marriages (widowed & divorced) and raising my son, who thank God just turned 21. I've been on death's doorstep but I've come back through the grace of God. Everyday is a celebration of life and new beginnings for me. Each day I have the opportunity to make my life better. I just pray that I can do something or say something to someone else that will help them. That is my purpose is life: to try and help someone else. I don't have the money to help that way but I do have a shoulder to cry on. I've always been told I'm a good listener so I guess that's true. If you need someone to vent to, drop by my page.
Remember YOU are WORTH IT. YOU DESERVE TO BE HAPPY AND HEALTHY. YOU DESERVE TO ENJOY YOUR LIFE. You don't have to do this journey along, your friends here at SparkPeople are here for you. We're all in this together - we're just at different stages facing our own unique challenges. WE CAN AND WILL DO THIS TOGETHER!
Wishing you all a fantastic weekend. Sending love & hugs,