Saturday, March 16, 2013
In moments of pondering (and I ponder a lot of things) I have tried to figure out if I am afraid of anything. I'm not afraid of storms, or spiders, or snakes. There are things that I tend to avoid like lions and tigers and bears, oh my, but I'm not afraid to go to the zoo and see them. I'm not afraid of someone stealing my unlocked car or the "stuff" from my home. I'm not afraid of being mugged in "bad" neighborhoods, but I don't walk those streets alone at midnight.
I think I do have 1 fear. Does anyone have a "fear" of losing wt? Yesterday I was pleased that I was holding at 190. Then I sabotaged it by going to Sam's and having a hotdog and buying Cow Tails (a caramel cream candy). I bought the apples, oranges and tomatoes I went there for, but I had been trying to break the hotdog and Cow Tails habits.
I've thought about this "fear" before and wondered about it. I really do believe I am afraid if I lose a little wt I will set myself up for future wt loss failure. I am also afraid people will be more judgmental, such as if I eat a cookie or put dressing on a salad their immediate reaction will be "I thought you were on a diet." I see many suggestions to share your goals with family and friends, which is exactly what I don't do. Why don't I? Because I have a fear of being judged, criticized, or compared because I don't have the strength of mind, body or soul to do it.
Well, knowledge is power and I have the knowledge of identifying the fear. Now all I need is the power to overcome the fear of breaking through the 190 barrier to 189.