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What is your fear

Saturday, March 16, 2013

In moments of pondering (and I ponder a lot of things) I have tried to figure out if I am afraid of anything. I'm not afraid of storms, or spiders, or snakes. There are things that I tend to avoid like lions and tigers and bears, oh my, but I'm not afraid to go to the zoo and see them. I'm not afraid of someone stealing my unlocked car or the "stuff" from my home. I'm not afraid of being mugged in "bad" neighborhoods, but I don't walk those streets alone at midnight.

I think I do have 1 fear. Does anyone have a "fear" of losing wt? Yesterday I was pleased that I was holding at 190. Then I sabotaged it by going to Sam's and having a hotdog and buying Cow Tails (a caramel cream candy). I bought the apples, oranges and tomatoes I went there for, but I had been trying to break the hotdog and Cow Tails habits.

I've thought about this "fear" before and wondered about it. I really do believe I am afraid if I lose a little wt I will set myself up for future wt loss failure. I am also afraid people will be more judgmental, such as if I eat a cookie or put dressing on a salad their immediate reaction will be "I thought you were on a diet." I see many suggestions to share your goals with family and friends, which is exactly what I don't do. Why don't I? Because I have a fear of being judged, criticized, or compared because I don't have the strength of mind, body or soul to do it.

Well, knowledge is power and I have the knowledge of identifying the fear. Now all I need is the power to overcome the fear of breaking through the 190 barrier to 189.
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    There is something safe about being overweight. You don't have to risk failing. What if you find a new man and it doesn't work out? What if you apply for a job and get rejected? I see my cat in a distant field. I have realized that the only cure for fear is courage. And a way to break the rut is to be an actress. Pretend for a day as hard as you can that you have your dreams, the house, the life, the relationship. Just pretend. Works wonders.
    1822 days ago
    I think I might be afraid to let others know that I am trying to loose weight also but then I seem to be afraid of a lot of things including being around people

    have a great day and keep working towards a new lower weight
    1831 days ago
    fear of succeeding - for sure. Way to go though by pondering it - and considering how to tame it!
    Thanks for sharing - your honesty motivates me to be more courageous!

    1831 days ago
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