This Week's Check In
Saturday, March 16, 2013
I’m sitting here trying to make myself feel positive. Just not feeling it today. My tailbone is still bothering me and I can’t get out and jog. (I actually had a dream about getting out for a run last night! Are you kidding me? Who is this person?) I’m sorting through the paperwork and phone calls trying to deal with the billing and workman’s comp. because it was not billed correctly (surprise, surprise). Someone backed into me in a parking lot this week and now I have that headache to sort through. My son has MORE projects that have not been appropriately modified that will consume our weekend (on top of my own schoolwork that I have do). This week hasn’t been that fun.
On top of that, I’m worrying about this 5K at the end of the month. I haven’t been able to train like I want. I do feel I’m getting better, but just when I think I’m feeling good, I lean or turn a certain way and see stars. I went out for a walk last weekend and walking up hills hurt. I was also getting winded easier than I had been. It’s been nearly 3 weeks since I’ve been out running.
I’m torn. I want to participate in this 5K, but I don’t want to do it if I’m going to do poorly and/or aggravate my injury. I also know a lot of people participating and I don’t want to be embarrassed. I know it’s not about that, but all the insecure feelings start coming back. This has me in a bit of a grumpy cat place, too, I think.
I guess I’m just in a crappy place. But I know it will pass. Thank goodness I’m 71 lbs lighter to have the energy to deal with it. Which at least brings me to some good news, I’m down 1.2 this week. The .6 from last week is gone and I’m at another new low. So, in spite of it all I’m still moving forward. That’s what it’s all about. Keep moving forward! Hmm…I’ve been saying that a lot these days. I may need to change the title on my sparkpage soon.
Enjoy the weekend, everyone. Happy St. Patty’s Day!
And here’s to a GREAT week ahead!