Saturday, March 16, 2013
Iím sitting here trying to make myself feel positive. Just not feeling it today. My tailbone is still bothering me and I canít get out and jog. (I actually had a dream about getting out for a run last night! Are you kidding me? Who is this person?) Iím sorting through the paperwork and phone calls trying to deal with the billing and workmanís comp. because it was not billed correctly (surprise, surprise). Someone backed into me in a parking lot this week and now I have that headache to sort through. My son has MORE projects that have not been appropriately modified that will consume our weekend (on top of my own schoolwork that I have do). This week hasnít been that fun.
On top of that, Iím worrying about this 5K at the end of the month. I havenít been able to train like I want. I do feel Iím getting better, but just when I think Iím feeling good, I lean or turn a certain way and see stars. I went out for a walk last weekend and walking up hills hurt. I was also getting winded easier than I had been. Itís been nearly 3 weeks since Iíve been out running.
Iím torn. I want to participate in this 5K, but I donít want to do it if Iím going to do poorly and/or aggravate my injury. I also know a lot of people participating and I donít want to be embarrassed. I know itís not about that, but all the insecure feelings start coming back. This has me in a bit of a grumpy cat place, too, I think.
I guess Iím just in a crappy place. But I know it will pass. Thank goodness Iím 71 lbs lighter to have the energy to deal with it. Which at least brings me to some good news, Iím down 1.2 this week. The .6 from last week is gone and Iím at another new low. So, in spite of it all Iím still moving forward. Thatís what itís all about. Keep moving forward! HmmÖIíve been saying that a lot these days. I may need to change the title on my sparkpage soon.
Enjoy the weekend, everyone. Happy St. Pattyís Day!
And hereís to a GREAT week ahead!